This is a thank you/testimony.
From the time I was born I was raised in a Christian home. My father and mother were also raised in Christian homes as well, So I was very influenced by Christian ways and acts.
Whenever I was about 11 years old I began to rebel. I still looked like I loved the Lord, but the inside was a completely different thing entirely. I wasn't spending quite time with The Lord. I wasn't worshiping. I cussed. And I did some bad things online. No one knew it. But I did. It got worse and worse until I turned 13. I couldn't take the pressure anymore. I wasn't who my friends thought I was. I had multiple personallities. I had changed myself to where I couldn't change back on my own. So I cried out to God in a desperate attempt to resolve my problems. But I got no answer.
All my friends realized what was happening to me. They all turned from me. Except 3 friends which happen to be so close to me now, I can't live without them. They stayed by my side through my rebelion, even if I acted like a jerk.
I continued to cry out to God. But I got no answer. So it came to the end. I was so miserable I wanted to die.
I was alone the night of November 1st, 2005, I was doing some bad stuff online and I felt miserable about it. So I took out a knife and put it to my chest. As I was about to pierce it in, the phone rang. I answered it and my best friend just said in the phone, "STOP!! Don't do it!! I love you! All of us love you!! Don't do it!! Come back to me. I miss you my child!" I stopped in dead silence. I automatically knew. That was a word from God saying it will all be over, Just come to me. Me and my friend talked for about 2 hours. I spilled everything. But she seemed to already know. She prayed with me and I was free of everything. I was free.
But then I began to lapse back into cussing....This time only I knew it....I cussed a few times in front of some people.....but not enough to fight over. I had been cussing to myself, under my breath and in the privacy of my room for about 8 months after I got freed of it before. I felt horrible about it. No one knew.....But then demons began to control my mind....I couldn't sleep. All of it, my past and the present were being tormented in my head....demons saying that God can't forgive me for this or that. I was a wreck. I thought I had given it up already....but my mind said otherwise.....
My same friend who helped me before had been praying with me for about 6 months but it wouldn't stop the demons.......I couldn't get them out of my mind.
I have been struggling with this up until last night.
So last night, I gave it up. I gave it all up. Everything I did in my past....all of it. I have had no more demons torment me since last night. It is a true miracle.
My friend had saved me of everything, even the worst. To this day I cannot thank her enough. She is so dear and close to my heart now, she is like my mother. So I want to thank you Dawn. For all the things you've helped me with in my life. For believing that I could make it through even though I couldn't on my own. For always being there. You are truly my miracle. I love you so much, and you will always be my Godsend.
And to the other 2 who helped my in my time of need. Joey and Theresa. Thank you guys so much. I would not be here right now without you two.
From the time I was born I was raised in a Christian home. My father and mother were also raised in Christian homes as well, So I was very influenced by Christian ways and acts.
Whenever I was about 11 years old I began to rebel. I still looked like I loved the Lord, but the inside was a completely different thing entirely. I wasn't spending quite time with The Lord. I wasn't worshiping. I cussed. And I did some bad things online. No one knew it. But I did. It got worse and worse until I turned 13. I couldn't take the pressure anymore. I wasn't who my friends thought I was. I had multiple personallities. I had changed myself to where I couldn't change back on my own. So I cried out to God in a desperate attempt to resolve my problems. But I got no answer.
All my friends realized what was happening to me. They all turned from me. Except 3 friends which happen to be so close to me now, I can't live without them. They stayed by my side through my rebelion, even if I acted like a jerk.
I continued to cry out to God. But I got no answer. So it came to the end. I was so miserable I wanted to die.
I was alone the night of November 1st, 2005, I was doing some bad stuff online and I felt miserable about it. So I took out a knife and put it to my chest. As I was about to pierce it in, the phone rang. I answered it and my best friend just said in the phone, "STOP!! Don't do it!! I love you! All of us love you!! Don't do it!! Come back to me. I miss you my child!" I stopped in dead silence. I automatically knew. That was a word from God saying it will all be over, Just come to me. Me and my friend talked for about 2 hours. I spilled everything. But she seemed to already know. She prayed with me and I was free of everything. I was free.
But then I began to lapse back into cussing....This time only I knew it....I cussed a few times in front of some people.....but not enough to fight over. I had been cussing to myself, under my breath and in the privacy of my room for about 8 months after I got freed of it before. I felt horrible about it. No one knew.....But then demons began to control my mind....I couldn't sleep. All of it, my past and the present were being tormented in my head....demons saying that God can't forgive me for this or that. I was a wreck. I thought I had given it up already....but my mind said otherwise.....
My same friend who helped me before had been praying with me for about 6 months but it wouldn't stop the demons.......I couldn't get them out of my mind.
I have been struggling with this up until last night.
So last night, I gave it up. I gave it all up. Everything I did in my past....all of it. I have had no more demons torment me since last night. It is a true miracle.
My friend had saved me of everything, even the worst. To this day I cannot thank her enough. She is so dear and close to my heart now, she is like my mother. So I want to thank you Dawn. For all the things you've helped me with in my life. For believing that I could make it through even though I couldn't on my own. For always being there. You are truly my miracle. I love you so much, and you will always be my Godsend.
And to the other 2 who helped my in my time of need. Joey and Theresa. Thank you guys so much. I would not be here right now without you two.
