things like pornography, self stimulation, perversion, things like that, they arent things you can just will-away, you cant just control yourself.
ive found in my own life that isnt always about how much you try to control yourself, because it doesnt matter how much you dont want it, you will not be able to resist it, if you are not walking in the spirit.
peter said, "be sober, and watch unto prayer"
i dont care much you hate pornography, youll never stop it if you arent continually before the lord in prayer, walking in his spirit, only then do you have the self control you need to resist the devil.
it doesnt matter how long youve been free, if you allow yourself to stop having a daily full length prayer time and time of meditation on the scripture, youll end back in that mess.
self control is something thats very important, but if you arent walking in the spirit, close to the lord, close intamicy, you wont be able to, the devil will steal all the desire to good you ever had, and you wont care, untill youve done it, and you find yourself looking up and asking forgiveness.
sometimes its more important to take great care and caution in how much you pray and fellowship with God, becuase without that, you cant resist the devil. becuase your left to the devices of your flesh, and the flesh isnt subject to the law of God and can never be.
but when your in close intamicy with the lord, through long times of prayer and reading the word, and yes sometimes it does have to be even and hour long, or even hours of prayer and meditation on the word.
but when your in that secret place, where you can feel the lord, where you have just came from your prayer place, youll full of strength, you will have the ability to deny all flesh and evil as you quote the word and cast out the devil and tell him to leave you.
oh it will still be a great struggle and it will still hurt, but you will have all you need to win, if you truely fear the lord and truely desire stop this evil.
some people are bound to sin and lust and porn, not becuase they love pornography and dont want to be holy, but becuase when God says pray and spend more time alone with him, they dont. so when the trial comes, they cant stand.
sometimes refusing to spend 30 mins to an hour in prayer, is the same choice to return to pornagraphy. they both happen at the same time, without you knowing it.
but everything falls down into how much time are spending alone with the lord, and if you just dont want to do that, then you dont really fear the lord and want to be free anyway becuase he did command us to pray, be praying always.
like peter said, "be sober, and watch unto prayer" sometimes the area of your life you need to watch isnt that you dont get back into pornography, but whether or not your praying enough.
becuase all you ever needed, your strength, your holiness, your calling, everything you need in christ is in the spiritual realm, its in Gods hand, and without prayer, it cant be put into your life. it takes much prayer to bring those things you need, into the physical, into your real life.your freedom from pornography is there, but if you dont be careful about your prayer time, it wont come into your life.
but seek the lord man, hell speak to you and tell you what to do, and if you do what the lord reveals for you to do, youll win this.
