A quick vent

[faithgirl]

Hello!! I just have to vent.

I am at the point where I am about to graduate high school and enter college. I have no self-esteem. I hate everything about myself from personality, looks, etc... I don't have many interests either. I have no idea what career path to choose and I don't really have the confidence to do it. I feel like no one cares about me or even cares i'm alive with maybe the exception of my parents. I feel like I just take up space and heck I don't even want to live anymore. I don't understand why I have all the bad things happen to me and everyone doesn't like me before they even know me. I have also been losing faith in God for the past year. I don't even want to deal with it anymore.

If anyone has any advice it would be appreciated!! Thanks!

 

[Everlasting33]

Hello!! I just have to vent.

I am at the point where I am about to graduate high school and enter college. I have no self-esteem. I hate everything about myself from personality, looks, etc... I don't have many interests either. I have no idea what career path to choose and I don't really have the confidence to do it. I feel like no one cares about me or even cares i'm alive with maybe the exception of my parents. I feel like I just take up space and heck I don't even want to live anymore. I don't understand why I have all the bad things happen to me and everyone doesn't like me before they even know me. I have also been losing faith in God for the past year. I don't even want to deal with it anymore.

If anyone has any advice it would be appreciated!! Thanks!

I can certainly empathize with you and I just want you to know that I care. Suffering from low self-esteem is certainly frustrating, overwhelmingly painful, and exhausting. May I recommend (like in my thread below yours) the book, "Breaking the Chain of Low Self-Esteem." I have read 2 chapters and it is an amazing book that is already helping me to see the error in my thought processes. Many individuals with low self-esteem have many fears and this book gently explains all of them.

In the meantime, try challenging your negative thoughts and doubts. Remember that overcoming this will be difficult but please be patient! It took years for your low self-esteem to mold, it will take years for recovery but acknowledging your low self-esteem is the first part of recovery!

I hope this helps a little!

 

[neonsurfboard]

Hey...im not going to pretend that i know your situation or what your going through because nobody knows except you. Ive had some rough times, and i know things can get hard, but if you want to talk id like to listen. Send a message or look in my profile for my AIM and Yahoo instant messengers if you need.

 

[AWorkInProgress]

This and that!

Read both threads sister. Sounds like you are comparing yourself to perfection and your listening to your sinful nature.

BTW definately sinful nature telling you lies. I looked at your picture and your a cutie. On that same note thou, it's not about looks but inner beauty of your soul. Focus on that inner beauty by reclaiming your self esteem thru God's teachings.

 

[lmarie23]

Hello!! I just have to vent.

I am at the point where I am about to graduate high school and enter college. I have no self-esteem. I hate everything about myself from personality, looks, etc... I don't have many interests either. I have no idea what career path to choose and I don't really have the confidence to do it. I feel like no one cares about me or even cares i'm alive with maybe the exception of my parents. I feel like I just take up space and heck I don't even want to live anymore. I don't understand why I have all the bad things happen to me and everyone doesn't like me before they even know me. I have also been losing faith in God for the past year. I don't even want to deal with it anymore.

If anyone has any advice it would be appreciated!! Thanks!

i struggle with low self-esteem as well so i don't have all the answers, but for me what has helped is seeking to understand my worth in the eyes of God. I'm reading The Search for Significance by Robert S. McGee and it's helping me do just that. it has chapters and a workbook you go through and you go through Bible passages and ask yourself questions about God's love for you and the lies that are so easy to fall into.

i also wrote a poem about trying to understand God's love the other day, maybe you would like it. i posted it on the depression board, you can find it here: http://www.christianforums.com/t5269335-new-poem-about-gods-love.html

You're at a hard time at your life where you have to make some decisions, I empathize. I just graduated college and I really don't know what i want to do now, so i'm struggling. If you ever want someone to talk to, feel free to pm or im me

love your sister in Christ,

Lynne

 

[faithgirl]

Thank you all so much for the encouraging replies! I will look for the book.

 

[GryffinSong]

Hello and hugs to you. I hope things are looking a little brighter for you. I want to suggest that you find someone to talk with. Either a professional counselor or a minister who has experience with counseling young people. I suggest someone gentle and kind, who will not tell you what to do, but will help guide you to discover your own path to building your self esteem, and to creating some goals for yourself.

Take care, and please let us know how you're doing.

 

[GryffinSong]

...I don't even want to live anymore...

I wanted to say one more thing about this.

PLEASE, if you EVER feel yourself wanting to die, please, please, please, call a suicide hotline! Where there's life there's hope!!! And I promise you, life gets better with time. I don't know where you live, or I'd look up the number so you'd have it. Please google it, and keep it with you just in case.

Perhaps it was just a figure of speech, but such thoughts should be shared and discussed. Talk with your parents. Find a counselor. Call a hotline. Please, do whatever you have to to find hope.

I will turn 50 in a couple of days, and I tell you that my life gets better every year. The uncertainty, the low self esteem, the doubts and fears of my youth are all mostly gone. I am full of joy most of the time. And with wonder at this beautiful life.

 

[teebart]

Yes, Faithgirl. Hang in there. You are a beautiful creation of God. I think everyone goes through the "taking up space" , "don't want to be here" feelings once or twice in their lifetime (or more). Perhaps you need a break prior to college life. Would your parents help you plan a getaway (maybe they will go)? Even if for just a few days (a spa or cruise)? Maybe meeting people from other places will help. And the getaway will relax you...

Praying for your future success in life...

 

[BigToe]

If your profile picture is you, you're gorgeous! Don't be so hard on yourself. And you know what, you don't have to know what you want to do with the rest of your life right now. I'm 25 and went to college for one thing and have changed my mind. Most people I know don't do anything related to their college degree anyway. You have some time to learn more about yourself and what you enjoy and that's what college is really about. It's about learning. Only, learning more about you, what makes you happy, what you dream about, and all that is included in the learning. I think it's the biggest part of it actually.

*snuggles*

 

[PeculiarTreasure]

Hey! I'm so sorry you're having such a hard time. I know how you feel though. I've been there and still am there. I've dealt with low self esteem pretty much all my life. I'm also having a hard time discovering what God wants me to do with my life. It's so frustrating. I really believe that my self esteem gets in the way of me getting out there and trying new things. Just know you're not alone. If you ever want to chat feel free to PM me anytime.