Your explanation leads me to believe that you're telling me you're incapable of godly love. If you were to review the earlier posts in this thread, you will find that by your responses your concession that you have violated two of the ten commandments. You haven't complied with the ten commandments, and you link that as a requisite to love. You haven't complied with that requisite yourself.
This is an excellent example that Paul draws on himself in Romans 7.
1 ¶ Or do you not know, brethren (for I speak to those who know the law), that the law has dominion over a man as long as he lives?
2 For the woman who has a husband is bound by the law to her husband as long as he lives. But if the husband dies, she is released from the law of her husband.
3 So then if, while her husband lives, she marries another man, she will be called an adulteress; but if her husband dies, she is free from that law, so that she is no adulteress, though she has married another man.
4 Therefore, my brethren, you also have become dead to the law through the body of Christ, that you may be married to another----to Him who was raised from the dead, that we should bear fruit to God.
Paul equates marriage to the law at the same time as marriage to Jesus Christ with adultery. It has been your consistent testimony that you're still bound to the first covenant dictated at Sinai, all the while making the claim that you also belong to Jesus Christ. This is adultery.
In the immediate verses following this quote, Paul tells us that we have been delivered from the law, and then identified that law as the ten commandments using the quote "You shall not covet" found nowhere else in the law. Instead of abiding by the eight commandments, you have now reduced them to seven. You prove over and over that you are no better than everyone else that God has concluded disobedient to the first covenant when Romans 11:32 states "God has committed them all to disobedience, that He might have mercy on all".
1 John 4:19 states that "We love him, because he first loved us". John doesn't make the first covenant a requisite to love god, as you have.