I was brought up just a regular kid,no religion no anything spiritual. Although i was told there was a god and heaven (if your lucky) when you die by my parents thats as far as it went.
I went to a public school but it still had bible study class for some reason,it was held in the library.I still remember having these classes,well one anyway....it was junior primary see,so i was young.
They only lasted a few years then it was just regular school until the end.
Since being old enough to make up my own mind on the world i believed there was nothing else but what we see here and i held this view for the most part without question as i have always relied on facts and evidence for what i believe to be true,i trusted in science that it provided all the answers,well most answers anyways.
However,for the last tree years or so I've been "looking" to see if i could get an answer on spirituality for myself as i have come to not trust anything put out by any government in control today,they lie cheat and steal all in the name of the almighty dollar, which lead me to hold the view "if they cant tell the truth about everything,they cant be trusted with anything "
I've searched for answers in almost every direction and the moment i felt i found an answer it always came up short leaving me with more questions than i began with.
I've been on/off about Christianity for around a year and a half,believing then not,when i didn't believe i put my "believing phase" down to weakness and fear of death but i never really feared death,i wasn't going to make the first available appointment to get there but it didn't really bother me.But the thing that lead me to searching for answers is an emptiness inside myself no matter what situation i am in.I have been financially and emotionally secure and insecure throughout this time and even when all other parts of my life are totally fine i still had the feeling of emptiness that nothing could fill.
I had a dream last year,the details are pretty vague now but it involved me being in a dark void,a place that wasn't really a place at all,it was nothing but i was there.I remember Jesus coming to take me out of there but i refused,then he left and i woke up.I obviously wasn't ready to accept God.
Two days ago for no reason at all (although it was probably a little of a kent hovind film i saw that changed my perspective) i started to believe that God is there despite nothing in this world saying so,i also concluded that evolution takes just as much faith to believe than to believe in God because it has so many unanswered questions.I hadn't believed in evolution for a few years because despite what were told it has to many holes to be a scientific fact,fore if it where i wouldn't be typing this.
I am the first to admit that the Bible contains some very strange things that make no sense what so ever by todays standards but i am through trying to answer these question,they cant be answered and if i am to believe in God i am to do it regardless of what doesn't add up.Science has many things that cant be proved or don't add up as well but i believed that for 28 years. This would be the point were i got my faith! I believe regardless of the things we cant answer because,well i don't really know .........i just have.I gave my life to Jesus and told him to do what he wants with it. (2 days ago)
Well,thats all.
I went to a public school but it still had bible study class for some reason,it was held in the library.I still remember having these classes,well one anyway....it was junior primary see,so i was young.
They only lasted a few years then it was just regular school until the end.
Since being old enough to make up my own mind on the world i believed there was nothing else but what we see here and i held this view for the most part without question as i have always relied on facts and evidence for what i believe to be true,i trusted in science that it provided all the answers,well most answers anyways.
However,for the last tree years or so I've been "looking" to see if i could get an answer on spirituality for myself as i have come to not trust anything put out by any government in control today,they lie cheat and steal all in the name of the almighty dollar, which lead me to hold the view "if they cant tell the truth about everything,they cant be trusted with anything "
I've searched for answers in almost every direction and the moment i felt i found an answer it always came up short leaving me with more questions than i began with.
I've been on/off about Christianity for around a year and a half,believing then not,when i didn't believe i put my "believing phase" down to weakness and fear of death but i never really feared death,i wasn't going to make the first available appointment to get there but it didn't really bother me.But the thing that lead me to searching for answers is an emptiness inside myself no matter what situation i am in.I have been financially and emotionally secure and insecure throughout this time and even when all other parts of my life are totally fine i still had the feeling of emptiness that nothing could fill.
I had a dream last year,the details are pretty vague now but it involved me being in a dark void,a place that wasn't really a place at all,it was nothing but i was there.I remember Jesus coming to take me out of there but i refused,then he left and i woke up.I obviously wasn't ready to accept God.
Two days ago for no reason at all (although it was probably a little of a kent hovind film i saw that changed my perspective) i started to believe that God is there despite nothing in this world saying so,i also concluded that evolution takes just as much faith to believe than to believe in God because it has so many unanswered questions.I hadn't believed in evolution for a few years because despite what were told it has to many holes to be a scientific fact,fore if it where i wouldn't be typing this.
I am the first to admit that the Bible contains some very strange things that make no sense what so ever by todays standards but i am through trying to answer these question,they cant be answered and if i am to believe in God i am to do it regardless of what doesn't add up.Science has many things that cant be proved or don't add up as well but i believed that for 28 years. This would be the point were i got my faith! I believe regardless of the things we cant answer because,well i don't really know .........i just have.I gave my life to Jesus and told him to do what he wants with it. (2 days ago)
Well,thats all.
