A dream

[Rosesandthorns]

At 7pm tonight I prayed "God, I am begging you for help. Lord I haven't been a Christian I want to have a new start. Lord Jesus as I am writing I trust that you will lead me to genuine repentence even in my denial of sins, Lord Jesus I have sinned against you, I have rebelled against God. I am a blasphemer, I am sorry. Lord Jesus show mercy on my soul for the sins I have commited."

Felt very sleepy... couldn't fight the urge to sleep. Had a dream.

I thanked God.

In the dream I was praying and talking to Jesus and I remember saying "I'm fully healed!" and I felt his love so strongly, I looked at myself in the mirror I looked like my reflection. I was thinking all the time about helping people and interacting with those I thought didn't enjoy my company those who didn't like me were helping me. I saw myself in a different light like it was a different version of who I was.

I awakened from the dream into the present, my whole body feeling anxious, my right eye feeling disorientated and I feel further from my "self." I feel this is what God is trying to say, leave your self behind. Any thoughts?

 

[sea5763]

The Bible says to die to your old self Ephesians 4:22-24. Proverbs 16:7 says that when your ways are pleasing to God even their enemies are at peace with them. My interpretation is that they will still hate you, but that they will not be seeking revenge against you for something you did because if you are living as a Christian should then you will pray for your enemies and bless those that persecute you Matthew 5:44. It is expected that there will be suffering in following Christ 2 Timothy 3:12 and that the world will hate you though John 15:18. We love because He first loved us 1 John 14:19. Matthew 5:16 talks about doing good deeds like your dream shows so that your light will shine and bring glory to God.

 

[Johnny4ChristJesus]

At 7pm tonight I prayed "God, I am begging you for help. Lord I haven't been a Christian I want to have a new start. Lord Jesus as I am writing I trust that you will lead me to genuine repentence even in my denial of sins, Lord Jesus I have sinned against you, I have rebelled against God. I am a blasphemer, I am sorry. Lord Jesus show mercy on my soul for the sins I have commited."

Felt very sleepy... couldn't fight the urge to sleep. Had a dream.

I thanked God.

In the dream I was praying and talking to Jesus and I remember saying "I'm fully healed!" and I felt his love so strongly, I looked at myself in the mirror I looked like my reflection. I was thinking all the time about helping people and interacting with those I thought didn't enjoy my company those who didn't like me were helping me. I saw myself in a different light like it was a different version of who I was.

I awakened from the dream into the present, my whole body feeling anxious, my right eye feeling disorientated and I feel further from my "self." I feel this is what God is trying to say, leave your self behind. Any thoughts?

That "interpretation" would certainly be consistent with Scripture. You prayed with a genuine heart asking God for forgiveness and mercy. God showed you that He was willing to do just what you asked.
Your flesh isn't gonna like that, "For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would." (Gal 5:17) "Those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh; but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit." (Rom 8:5) "Then Jesus told His disciples, “If anyone would come after Me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow Me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.…." (Matt 16:24-5) "And they overcame him by the Blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death." (Rev 12:11)

 

[timothyu]

Dual nature, animal and spirit. Which would God prefer you focussed on? The instinct of self or the love of all?