Ocd does not let me do things I want. or tells me to do things that I do not want.
Somehow, I end up in a dilemma and ocd is telling me
Ocd: You must do it! But you must not do it! Thanks to the thoughts that happened in your head.
I am so worried that I need to make a choice. and I can not make a choice. both options are worrying!
At that moment, ocd suggests something relieving that gets me out of the dilemma. it is just a thought. and with this relieving thought, my brain, automatically, generates thoughts without my will according to that relieving thought. it is about making a promise to God to do one of the two choices.
Even though, I know they are thoughts without my will, a part of me for a second, acts as if the thoughts have some value, even though, they do not. And that makes me feel relieved because I am getting out of the dilemma and also, worried because I must make the choice that it was promise without my will to God.
I end up, later, thinking "were the thoughts without my will or not. If they were thoughts without my will, why I acted to them?"
I should have ignored all the thoughts but I end up paying attention to this ocd. And then, ocd uses that against me.
Somehow, I end up in a dilemma and ocd is telling me
Ocd: You must do it! But you must not do it! Thanks to the thoughts that happened in your head.
I am so worried that I need to make a choice. and I can not make a choice. both options are worrying!
At that moment, ocd suggests something relieving that gets me out of the dilemma. it is just a thought. and with this relieving thought, my brain, automatically, generates thoughts without my will according to that relieving thought. it is about making a promise to God to do one of the two choices.
Even though, I know they are thoughts without my will, a part of me for a second, acts as if the thoughts have some value, even though, they do not. And that makes me feel relieved because I am getting out of the dilemma and also, worried because I must make the choice that it was promise without my will to God.
I end up, later, thinking "were the thoughts without my will or not. If they were thoughts without my will, why I acted to them?"
I should have ignored all the thoughts but I end up paying attention to this ocd. And then, ocd uses that against me.
