A breakthrough

[trinitygrace]

Today I had to go to my counseling appointment. Before it started I prayed to God to help my counselor help me with my ongoing struggle of procrastination and lack of motivation for life. I was telling my counselor how it is so hard for me to get motivated to do ANYTHING. Whether it be getting up in the morning after a full-night's sleep to starting a project - nothing excites me anymore. She said it could possibly be from my medicine but they we noted it started before then around the same time my depression really kicked in - this past summer. She then asked me if I have a fear of failure. I then thought about it and it hit me - I do! I am afraid if I don't do something perfect, than I will fail. I never thought this is the reason I could be held back. Ever since I realized this could be it, I have been forcing myself to do things I normally would push aside and say to myself "maybe later". Praise God for answering my prayer! Does anybody else have this fear? Is there any resources or books out there on the web that would help me? Please share your thoughts/stories! God Bless, Trinity Grace

 

[stanneberg]

I built a structure one time that won an architecture award and two merit awards. It was published in several books and magazines -- even a full page write-up in the paper. When I saw a copy of this, all I could do was torment myself: "Why didn't I use these nails. Why didn't I use that lumber. Why didn't I build it this way . . ."

When I had my "breakthrough", I decided that I couldn't do "perfect". I tried, but couldn't do it! I then told my clients that I could do "good". Since then, I've learned that my "good" is OK. In fact, my "good" is like other people's perfect!

I'm convinced that God doesn't want perfection out of us. He wants us! He is more interested in our heart than our performance. When we offer Him our gifts, talents, projects and abilities (things He gave us in the first place), he is more pleased with our desire to serve Him than the actual project itself. When He is pleased, and blesses our efforts, we get more excited and want to serve Him more. (What a rush!)

Congrats on your breakthrough! You've reached the top of a very tall mountain!

Stephen Tanneberg

 

[goldenviolet]

wow! i'm happy you got alot off your mind

there is nothing like having day with a lightened load ... you, know little lady, you did it! got your foot on a stepping stone. something to work towards! my best advice for you is to treasure your progress and be pacient while you progress ...

the best book the bible.

 

[vimto]

Really good to hear and an encouragement for all of us.

Thank you for sharing this - what you have discovered is so important - perfection only resides in God, that's why we are saved by Grace!

Just a little word about getting the hang of all this, challenging our own thoughts and expectations takes the 3 P's

PRAYER
PATIENCE
PRACTICE

the road is seldom smooth and isn't always upwards - but that's where you are going - don't be dismayed if you have the off day or two - it's all part of getting there!

Warmest regards in Christ.

 

[trinitygrace]

Thank you Stanneberg, GoldenViolet, and Vimto for all your kind words of encouragement. Yes it has been an uphill battle and yesterday at the counselor's I felt like I overcame a large hump of the journey!
This morning I had another small breakthrough that can explain my extreme fatigue! I am on anti-d's for depression and took my pill in the morning around 8 with breakfast. Well an hour later I laid back down and fell asleep on my bed until 11! Thank God I didn't have to be at work until the afternoon! I immediately dialed up the pharmacist and asked him what I could do. He said he used to be on the same medication and it used to make him feel like a zombie and wanna do nothing but sleep. He said he then started taking it at night, before bed and it helped him sleep better. He also said the number one side affect is drowsiness. So that's what I'm going to do. You wouldn't believe, but before I took the meds, it was only 7:30 - 8:00 a.m. and I was up, energized and rarrin to go with my day. Then I took my med and it was a different story. I felt so bad and felt like my whole day was ruined. Oh well...now I have hope. I know what's causing my fatigue and I'm going to change my dosage time and I'm also going to remember that my fear of failure is holding me back from things I need and want to do in my life.

Again, thank you all for your prayers and kind words of encouragement. If it wasn't for all of you....I wouldn't be where I'm at today. You give me confidence to really follow the Lord and put Him first in all areas of my life. God Bless you all! ~TrinityGrace

 

[stanneberg]

Again, thank you all for your prayers and kind words of encouragement. If it wasn't for all of you....I wouldn't be where I'm at today. You give me confidence to really follow the Lord and put Him first in all areas of my life. God Bless you all! ~

Trinity,

If I had to do all over again, I would have been talking on this forum 15 years ago. Being supported by like minded people -- both spiritually and mentally -- is invaluable!

I remember all the reactions my body went through when I'd start a new med. At one point, I was taking over 40 pills a day because nothing was making my condition better. They gave me the major drugs, then had to add more pills to counteract the side effects of the big ones. Today, I'm medicine free after a miraculous healing. It's been over 12 weeks since I've taken anything.

Medicine is important. I'm so happy that you were able to get some sleep. Be sure to take your meds regularly, but remember that your strength lies in the Lord.

Use this forum to solicit all the prayers and support you can! You are so young and valuable in the eyes of the Lord and He has a wonderful purpose for your life. Don't let the disease -- the ups and downs -- take anything from this promise.

PM me anytime you need to talk.

Stephen Tanneberg

 

[HisBelovedMelody]

does anyones mind just get tired sometimes..from too much thinking?? or trying not to think and things pop into your head?? I am SO tired..and tired of being tired..does this sound familiar? HELP!
Judahspraise

 

[stanneberg]

does anyones mind just get tired sometimes..from too much thinking?? or trying not to think and things pop into your head?? I am SO tired..and tired of being tired..does this sound familiar? HELP!
Judahspraise

The answer to your question is a resounding YES! I am exhausted!

Trying to shut my mind down has been and forever will be a challenge. Even simple scriptures leave me pondering.

When I'm like this I go to the 23rd Psalm. I especially enjoy the part about restoring my soul. Have you ever sat next to a stream or river. There was one place I went to in North Carolina that had one part where the water was rushing over the rocks and another part where the water pooled up and was very still. I go back there in my mind often.

Try to think about a place you've been that restored your soul.

The Heavens declare His glory . . .

Stephen Tanneberg