I am being blessed daily, searching the word for answers, Actually I started seeing things I never knew about, in regualar prayer
1st incident, was the hurt my husband had caused me, the horrible treatment and abuse, even after I lost my breast, the man wanted me dead
. And did his best not only to snuff me during the last few yrs of our marriage, but to reduce me to a nothing, stole everything I owned, I might as well been named Jobette
.I preferred death, and begged God to take me away. Then I read 2 Tim 3:1-18, and I knew I was over my head
it confirmed where I stood. Then I went into the why, what I could have done, what did I do to contribute, could I have changed anything
The whole book of Ecclesastes spoke to me
. It wasnt even about me, My husband hated God, any rules, he wanted everything of the world, and chasing the wind, no matter what I did, nothing would change
and even losing everything I have ever owned, it is really worth nothing anyway
so that in itself was a revelation to me. Next I went to Acts, as my divorce was finalizing
I am taking back my birth name, and as Saul became Paul, it was perfect for me to be rebaptised and start my life over a new name/whole person and human being. So I read Ephesians 1: 18-19 for my rebirth. Next came Romans 8
.. I know I am on tract, and sharing what I am learning, Then came Galatians, and who did not hear me, oh well, wipe the dust off my feet, and keep planting my seed wherever I go. Each day I am tested with parts of the chapter! I had a neighbor upstairs, who came down to use my bathroom, and helped herself to my pain medication, she knows I have cancer, and just had one surgery, and another one on the way, she not only stole my whole bottle, she refilled it, changed my address to hers, and forged my signature, next when offereing a ride to my dr, because I had no use of either arm
she unlocked my door behind me, and tried to steal my next bottle I just got out of the hospital! Luckily for her, I had just read a story about Esther, and I changed my attitude, and love her, instead of condemning her, as she is a Christian, she just has a problem bigger than her
and besides if I condemned her, I would have to condemn a whole lot of other people including myself! YIKES STRIPES! Finally after many healing rooms sessions, and spurts of growth and finding all my answers exactly in the bible, I received my tongues
My first message was Zephaniah 3:8-20, Then when I still am unable to get my personal belongings from my home, I find my husband has destroyed anything sentimental to me, and or stolen by his girlfriend, he is just not budging letting me have anything
I am still without very basic essential things. I read Phillipians 4:10-13.
Then another inspiration came to me after another healing room session, when I spoke in tongues and had an interpretor there, she told me God said I was his precious daughter, and he would hear all my pleas and lift me up. I started crying, that was the most beautiful thing anyone every said to me! That I am not a throw away piece of garbage. Of course I got hit in the middle of the night with more nightmares and garbage from my husband, or I should correct satan attacking me anyway he can so here came proverbs 10 .. It is not in my hands anymore, I have done what I can, but will continue to pray.
The next day came Psalms 69, which totally helped someone else, as I had no idea who that message was for, and the person thanked me, and said the first thing he felt like he was drowning, and thanked me for the message. Next came Psalms 9 & 10 .. they both tie in together..
Boy have I ever been exhausted tho I tend to keep it up, and figure out where God wants to use me. I have a new attitude I have been used and abused all my life, by serving men, and got nothing So if I can serve man with no reward, I can most certainly serve God, and be reward the most important and valuable gift of all . Eternity in heaven full of people who love and have compassion . Praise the Lord!!!!!
Then another inspiration came to me after another healing room session, when I spoke in tongues and had an interpretor there, she told me God said I was his precious daughter, and he would hear all my pleas and lift me up. I started crying, that was the most beautiful thing anyone every said to me! That I am not a throw away piece of garbage. Of course I got hit in the middle of the night with more nightmares and garbage from my husband, or I should correct satan attacking me anyway he can so here came proverbs 10 .. It is not in my hands anymore, I have done what I can, but will continue to pray.
The next day came Psalms 69, which totally helped someone else, as I had no idea who that message was for, and the person thanked me, and said the first thing he felt like he was drowning, and thanked me for the message. Next came Psalms 9 & 10 .. they both tie in together..
Boy have I ever been exhausted tho I tend to keep it up, and figure out where God wants to use me. I have a new attitude I have been used and abused all my life, by serving men, and got nothing So if I can serve man with no reward, I can most certainly serve God, and be reward the most important and valuable gift of all . Eternity in heaven full of people who love and have compassion . Praise the Lord!!!!!
