4th and 5th step AA

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Well I completed my fourth step this morning I already did half my fifth step but in doing it I realized how much I missed on my fourth. So I got the fifth step promises already on pg 75 big book second paragraph. Ive been sober this is mt eighth day I feel awesome got the best sleep of my life last night. Gonna complete my fifth Monday morning AA truly a blessing I didn't like celebrate recovery there were know alcoholics. I also completed Dr Caroline LEAF 21 DAY DETOX It help me so much so im gonna go threw it 2 more times I love JESUS HE helps me so much.

 

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The 1st step is said to be the only one that can be worked perfectly.

The first time you work step four it goes deep to some core issues. The main objective is that we be HONEST about our defects and resentments. (the #1 Offender)

We also need to take stock of our good qualities and talents as well. You can revisit any step anytime you need to. I worked on jotting an initial draft of my Step 8 list while doing 4 and You don't have to wait till you get to Step 9 IF you feel like you need (or are lead) to make an amends and can do so with a good heart and regardless of another's persons reaction or lack thereof either.

I came up with some good ways of doing amends from a distance.."when to do so would injure them or others" too, as I was going through #4.

For me Step 4 was about cleansing. First becoming aware, looking at the why's, assessing my motives, admitting they were not as pure as I would like you to think. It gave me a list of things to work on..not beat myself up over. It's like goals. It is the start of setting things right and not repeating past mistakes, but mostly IT's about getting gut level honest.

My sponsor really had to call me on some stuff the 1st time, cause I was not good at facing the stuff I did not want to and I was full of excuses and "buts". She kept telling me "there are no buts". But by the time I finished my 1st Step 4 I had plenty to work on and as I noticed things by doing 5,6,7, & 8 that I needed to work on further, I just made a note so I could look at it deeper when I did my #10 or another Step 4.

Just keep working and you will reap the promises.
Promise #11

 

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Thank you im finishing my fifth step tonight im excited I want the fifth step promises on pg 75 of the big book theres promises in each and every step but I don't call them promises there results for having a spiritual program of action I want a personality change safichant anuff to recover from alcoholism I had 4 years sober before but I didn't really work the steps I had a powerful born again exspierance and lost the obsession to drink but I rested on my laurels and didn't stay spiritually fit so I relapsed at the beginning of this year ive been sober 9 days im willing to go to any length so Im going as hard as I can. If Not For Grace I want what you got your probally the most spiritual person in AA Im impressed with your recovery.

 

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For me that's what a promise is..If you do ____ then ___ will happen, anything else is a gift and we do get those as well.

 

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I finished my fifth step did six and seven and eight now I'm on nine I only have two amends left out of the four years I was sober before so that's a relief yes they are promises your right

 

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