4 years tomorrow

[memoriesbymichelle]

Tomorrow is the 4th anniversary of my husband passing away. Today was his birthday! Today he was born and tomorrow he died. I really miss him this year and as we get closer to our Lord coming back. I don't know if I will ever find anyone else in this life that will love me and understand how I loved my husband of almost 25 years. It's sad, but I try to remember that God DOES have a plan for my life. It's just not clear what that plan is sometimes. Right now I am raising my 2 boys, almost 15 and 11. Luckily for me they are great kids, but I struggle to find good christian male role models for them. And sometimes my lonliness overwhelms me too. I miss him like it was yesterday.

 

[singingwife]

Thanks for sharing.

 

[memoriesbymichelle]

Today when I woke up, it was raining slightly, as I drove to work the sun was coming up SO bright behind me! It was almost exactly the same on the day he died. I don't know why I feel it sooo much this year. Other years since his death, I mean the first one was hard, but the second and third weren't as bad. This one is not bad per se, it's just he's been on my mind almost constantly the past 2 days. Kinda strange.....

 

[TexasHighlander]

Michelle

I definently know where your coming from maam. When I lost my grandparents, I was so out of it. But as the years go by, it does get a little easier. Just got to look to God and everything will alright maam.

Jeremy

 

[memoriesbymichelle]

Michelle

I definently know where your coming from maam. When I lost my grandparents, I was so out of it. But as the years go by, it does get a little easier. Just got to look to God and everything will alright maam.

Jeremy

Awe...thank you so much! I DO look to God. I don't know how people get by in this life without Him. Thanks for your kind words.

 

[Ken L]

my heart soul and prayers go to you and your family....I can not inspire you as I lost my wife and don't have the knowledge to inspire anyone...

My prayers
Ken

 

[memoriesbymichelle]

my heart soul and prayers go to you and your family....I can not inspire you as I lost my wife and don't have the knowledge to inspire anyone...

My prayers
Ken

Thanks for your prayers Ken, I will pray for you also. I have found in losing not only my husband, but before that my father-in-law, and my mother that even though we all know that we all are going to die, we can never prepare enough or be prepared enough for it when it comes. And each person being different, goes thru it differently. I truly believe, that for me, God used my father-in-law, and my mother, as a preparation for me to handle losing my husband, but that being said, it doesn't make it much easier. It takes a long time, but for me, if the right man came along, I might be willing to try to love again, but still not really sure about that.

 

[sadheart]

I am so sorry that it still hurts. I to can't wait for the day the Lord comes back. I never dreamed I would be a widow. It never crossed my mind but today it is six months since my Sonny went to be with the Lord. I miss him terribly. I have been so busy with work that I haven't been on here lately. Nights after I get home from work are very hard. I keep reminding myself that it is selfish to want to bring him back here. As David said, He can't come back here but I will go there.
Phil 4:13
Christine

 

[cajunhillbilly]

Yep even after almost 4 years, it still hurts. But I have found a church that has a single's group for over 40s and have made friends of several fine Christian ladies. But I still mourn the loss of my Christy and look forward to the Return of the Lord when all will be raised up. What a gathering of the faithful that will be!!!!

 

[NatalieJan777]

I DO look to God. I don't know how people get by in this life without Him.

May GOD BLESS you and COMFORT YOU today and everyday.

 

[GailMc]

Dear memoriesbymichelle - you wrote this:

Tomorrow is the 4th anniversary of my husband passing away. Today was his birthday! Today he was born and tomorrow he died. I really miss him this year and as we get closer to our Lord coming back. I don't know if I will ever find anyone else in this life that will love me and understand how I loved my husband of almost 25 years. It's sad, but I try to remember that God DOES have a plan for my life. It's just not clear what that plan is sometimes. Right now I am raising my 2 boys, almost 15 and 11. Luckily for me they are great kids, but I struggle to find good christian male role models for them. And sometimes my lonliness overwhelms me too. I miss him like it was yesterday.

I think you should let them watch CNN and CSPAN. Plenty of good role models on those channels. Perhaps you could also read some stories of the saints to them or ask them to read them. How about the Bible? I think there are some really good role models in those books too!

It's been 23 years since my hubby died. Suicide was his way out of his problems. I was very, very, very overwhlemed by just the simplest things. I got a little better at thinking about things, but the life stuff got too lifey for me...........twenty three years of being a widow has been a long time. Anniversary's of his death are hard for me too! But I get angry till I remember to blame it on the devil and get on with the day.

You really should find some solid Christian role models for your boys. I'd let them read about the saints. David never did. I think he deified himself and when he found out he wasn't God, it was too late!

Peace and all good,

Gail

 

[memoriesbymichelle]

Dear memoriesbymichelle - you wrote this: I think you should let them watch CNN and CSPAN. Plenty of good role models on those channels. Perhaps you could also read some stories of the saints to them or ask them to read them. How about the Bible? I think there are some really good role models in those books too!

It's been 23 years since my hubby died. Suicide was his way out of his problems. I was very, very, very overwhlemed by just the simplest things. I got a little better at thinking about things, but the life stuff got too lifey for me...........twenty three years of being a widow has been a long time. Anniversary's of his death are hard for me too! But I get angry till I remember to blame it on the devil and get on with the day.

You really should find some solid Christian role models for your boys. I'd let them read about the saints. David never did. I think he deified himself and when he found out he wasn't God, it was too late!

Peace and all good,

Gail

Thanks for the response. I can't believe it's almost 5 years now. We just passed what would have been our 29th wedding anniversary on the 21st of October. I am not too concerned about role models for my kids nowadays. My boys and I pray and read the Bible every morning before we go off for the day. We have read thru the entire New Testament and are in Ezekiel in reading thru the Old Testament. We read a chapter a day. Someday my boys will be able to say when people ask them "Have you read the entire Bible?" YES I have!. And they get plenty of role models of bad examples lol. And we go to church so there are positlve role models in our Pastors as well. We all have a pretty good relationship as a family and when something happens we talk about it and so far they are listening.