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[JesusIsHealingMe]

I'm feeling SO OVERWHELMED

I feel my life is in a complete mess!

I feel depressed. Just when I think I might finally be healing and improving, suddenly out of no where strong suicidal thoughts come.

I feel hopeless and helpless.

I feel so small and worthless.

So many people close to me have rejected me and abused me that I find it SO HARD to trust people and accept love.

I feel like such a hopeless case. I feel all hope is lost. I need to find a christian psychologist to help me.

 

[JesusIsHealingMe]

I feel like there are just SO MANY things I am struggling with right now

It's not just one or two small things .. its EVERYTHING!!

I used to be so extraverted and bubbly and the life of the party. Then there was a sudden death in the family and I've become very introverted. I'm just recently starting to become social again and yet because of the suicide, I find it so hard to trust people now.

I feel so fearful

I feel overweight

I feel worhtless

I feel so confused and overwhelmed

I am living in constant fear that something else bad is going to happen to me

I want so much to heal and grow and get well and I want so badly for Jesus to heal me so that I can then help others... but it seems to be taking forever and sometimes its just too painful.. it makes suicide so appealing. Just the loooong wait to be healed and for all this disgusting pain to be over.

i dont want satan to win in my life.

I know I am God's child. But human have mistreated me SO MUCH that I just can't see the future in a positive light anymore. I am so used to bad things happening. I have been told from about 2 or 3 years old that I am "stupid" "worthless" "ugly" and so many other names that I'd never heard of before.

And you will not guess who called me all these things - my mother She was supposed to love me and care for me adn protect me and look after me and build me up and foster in me a healthy self esteem. Instead, she rejected me, hated me, called me ****head and all sorts of awful names. I am in so much pain. How can can one just "get over" that sort of treatment overnight?!?! ITS IMPOSSIBLE

 

[brokenbeliever]

hi sister,
i hope you can find a christian psychologist and check out these websites too:
www.pleasantvalleychurch.net and www.akwellspring.com.
wellspring does phone counseling. i did that for several months and it really helped me. i highly recommend that.
believe me, i know how it feels to think you're making some progress and then sink to the bottom again. yes, i've been there more than once. but it is true that Jesus is healing you. no matter how it feels right now, He is. your hope is truly in Him. and He is faithful. i know He is. when i feel emotional pain i cry out to Him. oh sister i just have to say i love Him so much. lately i've been having a rough time myself. feeling lonely and problems with my marriage and rejection from people that i thought were my friends. but Jesus is so awesome. even tho we can't always feel Him, just cry out to Him. i pray He will speak to you and show you what to do and how to find the help you need. i pray He will encourage you and that His word will be powerful to you as you read it. i know it takes time. i'll tell you the last time i was feeling really bad, i cried out to HIm and He said "float". so i just gave it all to Him and i floated. then when the time came i was able to be proactive and try to do something to help myself. all this to say, i understand. and keep crying out to Jesus.

 

[SanctiSpiritus]

You must keep your head up, and hold fast. When the people who are supposedly close to me, disappoint me, I always think back to the story of the prodigal son. When the errant son had everything, everyone was his friend. Somehow, it makes me feel better.

 

[Rosebaronet]

When in doubts, search the Holy ghost in your heart, He will guide you to the love you so desperately seek, it's never too late to ask the dear Holy Ghost for a hug.

 

[nowhereville]

I'm very sorry you are feeling this way. Betrayed trust at a tender age is a terrible thing, but the good news it can be overcome IN christ. (Woooo Hoooo - gotta love the good news).

I struggle with intimacy of any kind with people - they are imperfect and faulty even sometimes. My childhood taught me that someone who loves you can still do something really terrible to you.

Today, I trust the God in other people - I was just thinking last night how nice it is that I have two pastors I trust. I tried to minimize it but then I thought no I am going to think this out - they understand me and when I talk to them I don't feel as though I am speaking a different language.

You may be a little challenged here and there but God will bring you from glory to glory also! He is not a respector of persons and if he did it for me he'll do it for you!!!

Continue to press in and look up. Talk to God as frequently as possible and it doesn't have to be all fancy either, talk to him the same way you talked here - it counts.

I pray that you will press in and God will pour out his spirit on you in a new and deeper way

 

[silentpoet]

I am sorry you hurt so much. Know that you are not alone. I feel pretty bad a good percentage of the time. I don't have any joy in my life either. I keep living though. I pray for you to be uplifted and your hurting heart healed.

 

[JesusIsHealingMe]

thank you all so much

wow im amazed how many ppl care about me here! God bless you all and thank you!

 

[LoG]

Sorry that you are being challenged in so many areas. Suicidal or thoughts of life being unworthwhile are not uncommon when there is a death close to us. Myself and a number of people I know have or are going through similar stuff with identical feelings. Rejection and abandonment issues can also be triggered by someone close passing away.
You are not alone in how you are feeling and by acknowledging it, you are seeing the areas where you need the healing from Jesus.

God bless

 

[Gimpy]

I absolutely understand your feelings. I too have been rejected by those I love. I dont even understand the basis of that rejection. I believe it is because I dont always agree with what they believe. But I do know my God loves me forever and will not let me suffer needlessly, but to allow me to develop my faith in Him.
I too, have parents who always told me I was nothing and would amount to being nothing. After many years though, I know they were completely wrong. I am someone, someone because I love others and care about others. I also know how much God loves me. No matter what those of this world feel or believe of me, He sees me as perfect. Never let others determine your worth. Remember, they crucified the most perfect person who ever lived and many other upright loving people, Gods own prophets and disciples. Remember, there are many who care about you and love you, including our loving God.

 

[RomanPrincess]

Don't listen to the devils lies!...satan will try to get you down and realize it is not the person but satan attacking you through others ........God sees you as the apple of his eye and knows all about you and sees alot of good in you.Forgive people when they tresspass against you and you know what?...sometimes God allows these things to happen because they are tests.To grow us up and to teach us how to respond when theses things happen.The correct responce would be to do/say nothing....just say thank you for your comment and leave it at that.Don't let other peoples negative words or actions affect you.Know who you belong to ...God. God doesn't create junk and no junk wil be in the Kingdom of Heaven....cheer up.
speak positive favor over your life. Think good thoughts.Rebuke satan when he attacks you and push those bad thoughts away.
It is easy to get depressed when someone starts thinking bad things and it takes work to become positive.
The best thing to do is before you get out of bed each day is pray and ask God to protect your heart,mind,body spirit,soul from evil and bad things.Ask God to guide you and to work in your life that day. Ask him to help you that day and to help you have a good positive day and an active productive day.
Spend alittle time each day in the Word of God.
Get plenty of sleep...drink lots of water and daily exercise like walking or what ever you like to do.Eat healthy and always pray about everything.Meditate on Gods Word daily.

 

[RomanPrincess]

oh another thing i forgot to write was........look at these times as a opportunity to be blessesd and rewarded.and for growing.When you learn how to respond in the correct fashion and choose the right choice ,you will be rewarded and blessed when you choose the right way.God sees what is going on and he knows what is in your heart.These are times for growing.....don't get down and do not believe satans lies. Get positive and be happy,speak positive things over you.... cause those are times for when you can be rewarded and blessed.