NOTE: this is very long and i know not everybody will find it interesting. i have put this here to possibly help some person or persons who struggle alot with feeling like their spitual life is going nowhere and they just can't "get it right". i hope to bring hope to someone who feels defeated.
on another forum that i visit (where religious discussion is not allowed), someone posted a thread about what has happened over the years to people from high school. seeing that thread has made me want to post this story of the Lord's work in my life over many years - i post this in the hope that this might be of some use to someone in building faith.
i'm in my 50's, i graduated high school in 1976. in my school in those days, there were a certain number of what you today call "stoners". (we didn't have that word then, we called ourselves "freaks".) these were the people in school who smoked marijuana and experimented with other drugs, and i was one of them. i guess there might have been around 50 or so of us, in a school with about 500 students. i did not know everyone in that circle, the stoner crew was as class/cliche conscious as any group of students anywhere. but i pretty well knew who all the dopers were, even if i wasn't friends with them.
i got married young, actually married before i graduated. i started working right away and joined the military about 2 months after graduation. these things in my life moved me away from the "cool" people. then about a year later, i had a powerful experience with the Lord and started believing the Gospel, though my life didn't change alot right then because of my belief. though my experience with the Lord was real, it took me several years to get it through my head that God requires a change in lifestyle, a move towards holiness. but this experience served to move me further from the druggy lifestyle.
i got divorced from my 1st wife, (our marraige had been pure hell on earth) then met a woman who God put in my life and married again. in 1985, my wife and i had very powerful born-again exeriences and totally dedicated ourselves to the Lord. i must confess that my spiritual life has been very rocky, many ups and downs, many failures, many things that i feel i did not do well with, and alot of times i have just felt like a colossal failure. then i found out something about 2 yrs ago that gave me a different and more hopeful perspective on my life and the Lord's dealings with me.
on another forum that i visit (where religious discussion is not allowed), someone posted a thread about what has happened over the years to people from high school. seeing that thread has made me want to post this story of the Lord's work in my life over many years - i post this in the hope that this might be of some use to someone in building faith.
i'm in my 50's, i graduated high school in 1976. in my school in those days, there were a certain number of what you today call "stoners". (we didn't have that word then, we called ourselves "freaks".) these were the people in school who smoked marijuana and experimented with other drugs, and i was one of them. i guess there might have been around 50 or so of us, in a school with about 500 students. i did not know everyone in that circle, the stoner crew was as class/cliche conscious as any group of students anywhere. but i pretty well knew who all the dopers were, even if i wasn't friends with them.
i got married young, actually married before i graduated. i started working right away and joined the military about 2 months after graduation. these things in my life moved me away from the "cool" people. then about a year later, i had a powerful experience with the Lord and started believing the Gospel, though my life didn't change alot right then because of my belief. though my experience with the Lord was real, it took me several years to get it through my head that God requires a change in lifestyle, a move towards holiness. but this experience served to move me further from the druggy lifestyle.
i got divorced from my 1st wife, (our marraige had been pure hell on earth) then met a woman who God put in my life and married again. in 1985, my wife and i had very powerful born-again exeriences and totally dedicated ourselves to the Lord. i must confess that my spiritual life has been very rocky, many ups and downs, many failures, many things that i feel i did not do well with, and alot of times i have just felt like a colossal failure. then i found out something about 2 yrs ago that gave me a different and more hopeful perspective on my life and the Lord's dealings with me.
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