16 and addicted.

[disconsolatelove]

Hello all. I suppose I'm posting this to be completely honest with myself and the world. I am addicted to nicotine, caffeine, and self-destruction in all forms.

Ever since last year I have been smoking. I have friends who are younger than me with even stronger and worse addictions, but I'm afraid simply because I know I'm on the edge of the cliff and I'm about to jump off.

I have a few serious issues in my past that have never been fully resolved, and last year I attempted suicide two times [both failed, obviously]. Since then, I've come to the realization that Hell is a very possible concept [I've been struggling with faith after a falling out with my ex-church]. After that, I delve deeply into self-harm, and everything short of suicide - a bit of drinking, cigarettes. Now I have friends offering me weed, acid, coke, and the like. And it's a world I want to explore.

Please pray for me or whatever else you can as I'm afraid which direction my life is going to take. I know I'll be experimenting in the future just pray I'll be able to get myself out of this rut long-term.

 

[AngelDove1]

When you get sick and tired,of being sick and tired.....
the help is out there.

 

[3rightsmakealeft]

Be strong be a leader and not a follower... Drugs are bad like Mr. macky say's. Lol

 

[ExistencePrecedesEssence]

Im addicted to caffiene, or was. I just kind of stopped and my body went through withdrawel and it sucked...so bad. Headaches and constant paranoia, i got through it though. Its pretty cool to look back on. You know what i did when i was sober? I drank coffee.

 

[UnitynLove]

I will pray for you sis

 

[lavenderskies]

I advise you look into some counseling. God can give you the strength to fight these temptations.

 

[meyre]

disconsolatelove please please think long and hard before going down the road of drugs, they will only make things worse, you don't mention anything in your post about your past serious issues, what ever happened in your past you have to come to terms with it, you have to let it go, you have to forgive and forget no matter how hard it is if this is what is causing you to self harm and attempt suicide then drugs are only going to make matters worse don't let it finish you, be strong your precious you are Gods child, im 37 now and my life turned upside down when I was 14 years old my life was hell and I pretty much wanted to end it all, drugs don't get ride of the problems they make them worse, and you will find that true friends will not take you down that road true friends want the best for you please think long and hard about your past and don't blame yourself for what ever it is that happened, I will be praying for you. With Love In Christ...