well, next week will be a year since our misscarriage. It might have to do with this, but i cry myself to sleep the last few nights, and i just say i dont know why. I dont know EXACTLY why, i think it might be because of this,and that every month i think this might be the month that we will be pregnant and i fail every month. I feel stupid that i am dealing w/this in such a great magnitude a year later. I have a lot of really good days, i thought i had worked through it, till a few days ago, when i just am extremly angry and anything makes me cry. Well and also to add to the mix, my sister in law is pregnant w/her second child, and she is the same age as i am, she just got married when she found out she was pregnant the second time and i've been married for going on 2 years now, and i just feel like God is punishing me or something idk, but what i was going to say was that next wednesday is the exact date that the misscarriage happened, and thats the day my sil goes to the dr. for the ultrasound to find out weather she is having a boy or a girl. We all think its going to be a girl, which would be even harder, just adds more to the mix cuz thats what i was hoping for when i was pregnant. My husband seems to be perfectly ok, he just accepts things and moves on, i just cant seem to do that, fully. I really think i should get some sort of counseling or something, or join a support group, ijust dont know where to find that. So first of all i'm asking for prayers and secondly i'm asking if anyone knows of any sort of support group or anything like that. Thanks and sorry i rambled so long, its just extreamly hard.