1 year later

[justpassingthrough21]

Just wanted to post about this Easter compared to last. Last Easter I had either 1 massive panic attack or 10 anxiety attacks at the same time, while in church. I was sitting their and imagining horns coming out of my Pastors head, it looked as though the sanctuary was engulfed in flames. And I was sweating bullets as I watched a video of the Lord being crucified and rising again. Trying not imagine cussing and sexually explicit images about what my Pastor was preaching about. I thought I was possessed.
Fast forward 1 year later, I am walking around shaking hands and exchanging smiles. Excited to see what the children were about to put on. I was deeply moved by the praise and worship and preaching, thinking on what the Lord did for me. Not one time did I have an anxiety attack, and only 1 time for just a slight moment did I feel one trying to sneak up on me when my Pastor did a salvation call. I have really done nothing this past year except press on in my prayer life, in faith, in praising God, in reading my Word. Talk about stubborn faith! lol. I just wanted to encourage those who want to give up! Keep seeking God. I am not where I want to be yet, I still struggle with things related to OCD, but every day I get better. And I thank God by faith that I am already healed.

I hope that blesses and encourages someone.

 

[Jesusisgood]

Thank you for posting I am so glad to hear how the Lord helped pull you so far from last year. I too have come along way since last year I was afraid to do so many things and I too would have sexual thoughts that would really bother me. now I feel free from my ocd Thanks again for posting

 

[Danny34]

you sir, are a gift of God. :O

 

[Sasha37]

God is so good. He doesn't give up on us ever, does He? His work is deep but lasting...painful, but permanent. I have been listening to a song, A LOT, by JJ Heller which says, "My love is a light driving away all of your fears. So don't be afraid. Remember I made...a promise to keep you safe. God bless you dear friend You are in my prayers always.

 

[shelovesChrist]

Yesssss ! Glory

 

[RobertZ]

Not one time did I have an anxiety attack, and only 1 time for just a slight moment did I feel one trying to sneak up on me when my Pastor did a salvation call.

Can you describe that feeling? every time a call for salvation is given I get tense and feel extremely nervous. I cant tell if I am resisting the Spirit Of God or if its just some sort of anxiety?

I surely do not wanna be resisting the Holy Spirit!

 

[RPicking]

Thank You for sharing. It's always nice to hear when people that have been overcomed by their OCD and have found victory. That puts the warm fuzzies inside my heart, because it gives me hope that not all days will be rainy days

Can you describe that feeling? every time a call for salvation is given I get tense and feel extremely nervous. I cant tell if I am resisting the Spirit Of God or if its just some sort of anxiety?

I surely do not wanna be resisting the Holy Spirit!

The encouragement that I can give you and it's probably something that you have heard all the time. If you're bothered about resisting the Holy Spirit, then you're not resisting the holy spirit. (IMO), That is the living proof that God is doing a work in someone...The Devil isn't going to make you doubt if you're resisting God's holy spirit...if anything, he's going to make you think that you're resisting and use your weakness to make you weaker.

 

[RobertZ]

Thank You for sharing. It's always nice to hear when people that have been overcomed by their OCD and have found victory. That puts the warm fuzzies inside my heart, because it gives me hope that not all days will be rainy days



The encouragement that I can give you and it's probably something that you have heard all the time. If you're bothered about resisting the Holy Spirit, then you're not resisting the holy spirit. (IMO), That is the living proof that God is doing a work in someone...The Devil isn't going to make you doubt if you're resisting God's holy spirit...if anything, he's going to make you think that you're resisting and use your weakness to make you weaker.

Thank you, it would just be nice if I could know 100 percent for sure that he was still here dealing with me. I know a person can keep putting salvation off to the point where the Holy Spirit will not bother to speak to them anymore and after that happens your done.

 

[RPicking]

Yeah but if you stop and think about it...Why would devil have any reason to come after you and make you doubt unless you were saved? Or maybe I'm making it way too simplistic but if the enemy who walks about like a roaring lion seeking who may devour...Would he go after the non-christian and bother them with doubts? That person doesn't really care would they? A non-christian doesn't go around all frantic because he's not a christian or doesn't know 100% if they are Again, I think the strongest witness that we have is that the devil is using our weakness against us. He doesn't want us to be champions for Christ that we can be!!!!

This is hard for me to say because I just went through a major Obsessive/compulsive moment (even after having a better day)...Ugh!!!!

I do understand what you're feeling though, I'm just trying to encourage! I don't want you to think that I'm making your concerns little or anything.

 

[justpassingthrough21]

Trust me bro, you are fine. I use to break out in hot flashes and sweats when my Pastor would give salvation calls. I use to go into full blown anxiety attacks looking at a cross. If I can overcome this, anyone can. I am doing so good now. I pray in tongues every day, I sing to the Lord, I read the Bible to my boy every night with my wife. I overcame my anxieties when I quit blaming myself for every though and emotion I had. Especially when I hated them and wanted them to go away. And when I really began to see God the way the Bible describes Him, not the way the devil wanted me to see Him

 

[justpassingthrough21]

It's hard to describe the whole process but basically if you think resisting the Holy Spirit is bad then when your Pastor is about to give a salvation call you will begin to get pre anxiety. Then you will begin to hyper focus on you body, you heart beat, anxiety, tempurature, every little aspect. If you sense any bodily changes you will think" oh no I am feeling anxiety because I am resisting the Holy Spirit." then becuase you feel evil for doing that your anxiety will increase, etc etc. It is all a mind game, I know this because laying in bed at night your heart will break over the condition your in which goes to show your heart is still pure and in the right place. You have to know Gods Word to defeat the lie.