Hey
i was praying after reading about it and by mistake said (in my head) that i renounced the holy spirit which i dont and now i dont feel God.
Is it all in my head, what can i do ?
PLEASE help


What?
What do you mean "feel God"? If you think you sinned so bad God won't be in your heart anymore... then, yes, you will have problems feeling the fire of God living inside your heart. But, do not worry!
First of all, note that such wicked arrows come from either your own sinful flesh or from the dark spirits. These are not from the real you, which is born of the Holy Spirit.
Paul notes, in Romans, that when we consider good and Holy things, that sin in us arises against it. To put this another way, expect to have sinful thoughts and arrows from the Devil when contemplating or praying.
Faith... is this power to continue onwards, despite this onslaught. Inner strength connects through this faith. Faith is created through love.
What you must do, therefore, is to remember, as Paul wrote in Romans, that if we hate our sin, then we know it is not or no longer of us... because we hate it. By hating it we show that it is not of us. We hate sins we have done through repentance. We hate sins that approach us already, when we do not need to repent.
We should expect, as Christians, to not have a inner life which is always free from such onslaught. Rather, the rain will come, but we shall and do stand regardless.
What the wicked ones want... is to trick you with such things... to confuse you... to make you lose faith... and this they have done, if only so temporarily.
Remember, do you believe and trust God to love you regardless of what you may say or do or think? Trust, therefore, in the loving forgiveness of God, and put all such things behind you... by hating them.
It does sound like this is but a temptation which arose in your (to word it differently, but still adequately, now)... you are not acknowledged as being sinful if you merely have a temptation. Blasphemous temptation is no different from sexual temptation nor any other manner of temptation. Simply resist it, deny it, pray for God to remove such wickedness from you, and continue on.
Always continue on, in faith. You must work on that relationship with God.
And do not forget, God let's us go very often, He lets us sin, so we might know that without Him, we are nothing. Such failures keep us humble.
So, see this as what it is... a trick. This is spiritual warfare, and the other side means business.