Hello, I have been struggling with mental illness since a child and am now in my mid 40s, and I also have considered myself a Christian since a child.. I struggle immensely with ocd, anxiety, and in turn making "certainty", "knowing", impossible for me, especially when it comes to what we hope for as Christians.( I do realize many say certainty shouldn't be looked for that's where faith comes in )I have never done any drugs or drinking etc so this perspective is not created but just simply how I'm wired. For the most part I like the meloncholy deep thinking creative analytical personality I have however it is very difficult in my walk with the Lord. I just crave that "knowing" and "assurance " so many seem to have. I am curious if you think this is the thorn in the side that Paul talked about that will help make my testimony? It seems it would take divine intervention for me to get over this issue. Day in and day out I plead to have that assurance and knowing that so many Christians have. I feel if I had this so much of my anxiety would dissapear.Anyone similar or understand and have any advice?
Do you mean knowing/assurance/certainty that you are saved?
I have OCD and some anxiety and I also have some difficulty believing/knowing (thinking/feeling) I'm saved and won't go to hell when die. But some of the following verses help me to be not so unsure:
"if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved."
"This is the work of God, that you believe in him whom he has sent."
"He who believes and is baptized will be saved; but he who disbelieves will be condemned."
"he who endures to the end will be saved."
"I am the door. If anyone enters in by me, he will be saved".
"It will be, that whoever will call on the name of the Lord will be saved."
"If you love me, keep my commandments."
"Here is the patience of the saints, those who keep the commandments of God, and the faith of Jesus."
"Without faith it is impossible to be well pleasing to him, for he who comes to God must believe that he exists, and that he is a rewarder of those who seek him."
"Most certainly, I tell you, unless one is born anew/again/from-above, he can't see the Kingdom of God."
So the way I take it is if we believe and have faith in God and confess that Jesus is the Messiah and died for the forgiveness of sins and we repent and born again and keep his commandments and endure to the end them we are saved. We are saved by grace & faith not by works/earning, though true faith has works.
I don't know why God allows some of us to suffer things like mental illness, but it doesn't mean we are not saved.
Or do you mean difficulty believing/faith in God and in Jesus being true?
Or do you mean knowing/certainty/assurance of answers to prayers?
When it comes to answers to prayer I have great difficulty believing God will answer (as I have all sorts of thoughts of why God may not answer) and it says in the bible that we have to believe without wavering/doubting or we can't expect anything from God (ref James).