- Jul 27, 2016
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I was not working for 20 years. I had to do my hairdressing training, which is 3 years long in Germany and I wasn't good at. I never wanted to do this, I had other ideas about my life. This was in the 80's and with GCSE, you could not do much. I would have liked to be a fashion designer, but there was no help from the family. My mum just laughed at me. It was a dark time for me; I wasn't good in school either. I got bullied at work and the work was incredibly hard, and we had long hours. I got angry and after that, stopped working. My mum always said I should go to work. She repeated herself and I moved out, I actually run away from here, as I could not trust her. She was overpowering. I was crying my eyes out at the end.
Because I hadn't worked and at this time we did not know what illness I had. Any requests from family members that I should work, fell on deaf ears. This money is missing, which I could have earned. We could have bought a house, but even so I went to doctors regularly, I never got any medicine. And I felt ill, depressed and had always flu.
But there are many people these days who don't work. You can't tell them, it will not help. They never go out to work. And these are not schizophrenics, they are perhaps depressives.
I feel really shocked about my self, that I ran away from home because of all this. Ok, my mum was harsh and my Dad agreed with her. But other children go through similar experiences and they don't run away. In order to appreciate her, I did some work on me and forgave her and started to do hair again, I am better now and read in hairdressing forums that the stylists have a lot of problems with customers and they are crying or get ill. But I should have continued to work in hairdressing, I mean I could do colouring and perm and washing!
I moan that I am not successful and I have much to show for. I am 63 years old and that hurts. In the meantime I have done soem small courses but did not do fashion. I read a lot of psychology books and did Life Coaching courses. (High Merit, and Merit), I did music and listed them on CD Baby and the managmenet said they love me.
Of course I can do haircuts and highlights and Balyage. But I am jellous of some successful stylists. One who went to Paris fashion show to do hair. Others have salons, or can ask for higher prices. I just could do hair with low prices.
God 'told' me to do hairdressing again, and the fear was suddenly gone. I work for 10 years as a housekeeper. I worked in hotels and now I go to people's homes and clean and actually love it as it is peaceful and I am one of the best they told me. But I think of doing hair again. I was so angry with this situation that I never wanted to do this again, but I love the business side.
Because I hadn't worked and at this time we did not know what illness I had. Any requests from family members that I should work, fell on deaf ears. This money is missing, which I could have earned. We could have bought a house, but even so I went to doctors regularly, I never got any medicine. And I felt ill, depressed and had always flu.
But there are many people these days who don't work. You can't tell them, it will not help. They never go out to work. And these are not schizophrenics, they are perhaps depressives.
I feel really shocked about my self, that I ran away from home because of all this. Ok, my mum was harsh and my Dad agreed with her. But other children go through similar experiences and they don't run away. In order to appreciate her, I did some work on me and forgave her and started to do hair again, I am better now and read in hairdressing forums that the stylists have a lot of problems with customers and they are crying or get ill. But I should have continued to work in hairdressing, I mean I could do colouring and perm and washing!
I moan that I am not successful and I have much to show for. I am 63 years old and that hurts. In the meantime I have done soem small courses but did not do fashion. I read a lot of psychology books and did Life Coaching courses. (High Merit, and Merit), I did music and listed them on CD Baby and the managmenet said they love me.
Of course I can do haircuts and highlights and Balyage. But I am jellous of some successful stylists. One who went to Paris fashion show to do hair. Others have salons, or can ask for higher prices. I just could do hair with low prices.
God 'told' me to do hairdressing again, and the fear was suddenly gone. I work for 10 years as a housekeeper. I worked in hotels and now I go to people's homes and clean and actually love it as it is peaceful and I am one of the best they told me. But I think of doing hair again. I was so angry with this situation that I never wanted to do this again, but I love the business side.
