Having a really hard time believing God is good right now

Hi, sorry to hear of your struggles. Yes, God is good though sometimes we do not understand everything going on. It is not supposed to be always easy. I pray you can find help from heaven and it can come from other Christians who can minister to you. It sounds like you are doing better. Exercise is a great habit. The world can be a cold place, and often people can go unnoticed. One of the Psalms though says God puts the lonely in families. I know he did that for me. Just don't give up, and don't be afraid to ask God for help for every need that you have. I do pray you can continue to get things turned around. God bless.

stevenb6 said:

The struggles I have are just too many. The pain I feel is unbearable at times.

The only thing I have to keep me occupied is exercise. And thanks to being completely out of it earlier in this illness I racked up a lot of bodyfat and health problems.

Ive lost weight past few years but I still suck at working out and smoke, I attribute to schizophrenia.

Just feels like I dug myself the deepest hole I could to try and get up out of. I am having a hard time coping lately living on my own, broke as hell and just no hope.

I guess some cool things I did this year that I didn't see coming, I can do chinups now(not many at one time but still its a start) got my bench up to 135 pounds deadlift up to 120 pounds and other stuff.

I had gotten decent at jump roping but this year switched more to stationary bike and it sucks cause when I first got it I could go to 5, 7, 10 then 15 minutes without stopping and now I can't go past a minute thirty before stopping past few months.

Lately i've been not smoking more than I have I just cannot completely kick the habit though.

That's all I got. I'm a loner/struggler hard lately lol. It's a cold cold world.

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Trust me. Persevere and keep his teaching in your heart and you will see. Pray in all things. It's our armor

stevenb6 said:

The struggles I have are just too many. The pain I feel is unbearable at times.

The only thing I have to keep me occupied is exercise. And thanks to being completely out of it earlier in this illness I racked up a lot of bodyfat and health problems.

Ive lost weight past few years but I still suck at working out and smoke, I attribute to schizophrenia.

Just feels like I dug myself the deepest hole I could to try and get up out of. I am having a hard time coping lately living on my own, broke as hell and just no hope.

I guess some cool things I did this year that I didn't see coming, I can do chinups now(not many at one time but still its a start) got my bench up to 135 pounds deadlift up to 120 pounds and other stuff.

I had gotten decent at jump roping but this year switched more to stationary bike and it sucks cause when I first got it I could go to 5, 7, 10 then 15 minutes without stopping and now I can't go past a minute thirty before stopping past few months.

Lately i've been not smoking more than I have I just cannot completely kick the habit though.

That's all I got. I'm a loner/struggler hard lately lol. It's a cold cold world.

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Hi Steve. I'm a loner too, but I'm a loner that loves to be a loner.

Now don't get me wrong, when I'm out I am a social butterfly. I'll give of myself until i drop, but when I'm home it's like, don't visit me, don't call, just need to be alone and do my alone thing with God, and recharge.

I personally know several people who seem to have it all, but are unhappy. Just 5 days ago I was chatting with one that told me they have it all, a good life, but still unhappy.

I don't know anyone that became happy seeking happiness. We were created in the image of God. God is love and He creates and gives.

Pray to Him and find a passion with Him. Don't seek your own happiness. Seek Him and how you can be his hands and feet to others.

It is tempting to get discouraged with God when things aren't going our way. We've all been there, but through the darkness hang on to what you do know, He's good and loves us more than we can comprehend. And if you don't have that revelation, ask Him to reveal it to you.

Trust me, there is a reason. Ask Him, then keep your eyes open to what He shows you. He's faithful, and in time you will see what you did not see and be amazed.

Do you have a support system?
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My friend I've been there. I hope God speaks to you and lets you know your next steps. That small still voice should help you. If I told my sister to listen to a voice in her head she would laugh at me. Its real though I assure you. God loves us but He loves us too much to leave us a certain way. Sanctify where you can and keep praying! Check in here too because a lot of us have been where you are....Respect...

stevenb6 said:

The struggles I have are just too many. The pain I feel is unbearable at times.

The only thing I have to keep me occupied is exercise. And thanks to being completely out of it earlier in this illness I racked up a lot of bodyfat and health problems.

Ive lost weight past few years but I still suck at working out and smoke, I attribute to schizophrenia.

Just feels like I dug myself the deepest hole I could to try and get up out of. I am having a hard time coping lately living on my own, broke as hell and just no hope.

I guess some cool things I did this year that I didn't see coming, I can do chinups now(not many at one time but still its a start) got my bench up to 135 pounds deadlift up to 120 pounds and other stuff.

I had gotten decent at jump roping but this year switched more to stationary bike and it sucks cause when I first got it I could go to 5, 7, 10 then 15 minutes without stopping and now I can't go past a minute thirty before stopping past few months.

Lately i've been not smoking more than I have I just cannot completely kick the habit though.

That's all I got. I'm a loner/struggler hard lately lol. It's a cold cold world.

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Cling to hope, cling to god. Fight tooth and nail, kicking and screaming, to hear god, and pray to god to heal you or have a relationship with you. Ask him to send you a comfortering spirit. Something to help you see the beauty in the pain, lessons behind the struggle, and hope in the darkness. CLing to him like jacob did when wrestling with god. Jacob was injured with a limp he had the rest of his life, but he refused to let go of god until he was given a blessing. Refuse to give up on god, until god takes notice in you and actively guides your life and help you through your struggles. Search for him tooth and nail. In the bible, in people in your life, in the small moments of happiness, seek for him in the struggle, in the pain. Look for him everywhere you go. Have him in your thoughts constantly. Develop a unquenchable thirst and fire in your heart and passion for god, until the only thing that can possibly fill it is god himself. Thats when God can move quietly in your life and you can find beauty in the small things of life. And these small comforts will make all the difference, because the perspective you gain.

stevenb6 said:

The struggles I have are just too many. The pain I feel is unbearable at times.

The only thing I have to keep me occupied is exercise. And thanks to being completely out of it earlier in this illness I racked up a lot of bodyfat and health problems.

Ive lost weight past few years but I still suck at working out and smoke, I attribute to schizophrenia.

Just feels like I dug myself the deepest hole I could to try and get up out of. I am having a hard time coping lately living on my own, broke as hell and just no hope.

I guess some cool things I did this year that I didn't see coming, I can do chinups now(not many at one time but still its a start) got my bench up to 135 pounds deadlift up to 120 pounds and other stuff.

I had gotten decent at jump roping but this year switched more to stationary bike and it sucks cause when I first got it I could go to 5, 7, 10 then 15 minutes without stopping and now I can't go past a minute thirty before stopping past few months.

Lately i've been not smoking more than I have I just cannot completely kick the habit though.

That's all I got. I'm a loner/struggler hard lately lol. It's a cold cold world.

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It is a cold world. We who struggle need each other.