Sure, but do you not believe there is an extreme the other way as well? I have been raised christian, thus being raised to believe that I am a horrible, vile, wretched, hopelessly wicked, evil and depraved thing. This has had very negative results in my life, from being twice forced into the hospital for my "safety" the second time after beating my own face to the tune of 9 stitches, broken nose and two swollen eyes that didnt let it light for over 24 hours. I got a vasectomy in my twenties because if I was as evil and horrible as god says then the best thing I could do is not reproduce.
I am aware that I am forgiven, but forgiveness doesn't change the nature of what I am. I try my best to avoid children, my brother suggests that I should try to meet people, that socializing would do me good, but how can one be in polite society knowing that one is evil and depraved?
I know that I deserve to burn in hell for eternity because of what I am (yes I have salvation, and I am not going to burn, but I still deserve it, I'm still me) and it makes it hard to live without being afraid of who you are, especially knowing that anything I have ever done (donated a kidney, invited many homeless people in to live with me, gave a car to a single mother, helped as many people as I could when I could) is nothing but filthy rags. I am that bad
