Husband and I looked at the church that the Father recommended and we are so overwhelmed by the saints, photos of saints, paintings of saints, saints and their place, in general.
The concept of this much decoration and ceremony e.g. kissing the cross, is just so foreign to someone like me, who verges towards the extremely austere (I don't even have a cross/crucifix hanging on the walls of my home), that I don't even know how to overcome what I can only explain as severe aversion.
The teachings of the church seem so sound but how do I overcome this part since it all seems such a large part of TAW?
He told me that converted Anglicans, Pentecostals and Roman Catholics attend their church. The Roman Catholics and Anglicans, I can understand, to a point, being okay with ceremony etc. Pentecostals are demonstrative, so I can sort of understand that, but what about someone like me? And I'm worried about my husband who really wants to be saved but just isn't quite there yet.
I have prayed about it....it all seems so outside of my comfort zone! I am hoping that if I have the opportunity to speak to someone, face to face, they can help with this but, in the meantime, I have a lot of maybe Calvinistic tendencies. Not the doctrine so much as the behavior i.e. not drawing attention to self, quiet prayer, no decorations etc.
I did not know things would be so complicated! I'm just trying to find the church that represents the Truth and I'm over here overwhelmed by things I never considered!