- Nov 4, 2025
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- Romania
- Gender
- Male
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Single
My situation is…. desperate, i ve hit rock bottom and i honestly dont know what to do or why this is happening .
I ve lost my mom 2 years ago, and 3 months ago my father passed away after a long battle with lung cancer . I did everything I could to help care for him but it was too late, he had metastasis as well.
To manage my dad took out a huge loan from the bank and because i used to work part time I cosigned the loan.
Im 24 , im in debt up to my ears, I literally cant borrow more from anywhere, I have left for this month under 2 euros and i just finished the last of my food this morning. I sold everything valuable I could except this phone because I need it for University .
The last of my money went on rent, dad didnt have anything to leave me, i wish he would have never went away, my mom too.
I didnt sleep last night, im depressed I dont know what to do or how to survive, i got hired again at the begining of the month, and even if its really hard im managing it a long with my university exams. The only problem is I get paid on the 2 nd of November . I cant survive for a month on basically nothing.
I have no friends I can rely on or ask for help, i cant get a cash advance at work because I just got hired , i cant borrow more from the bank, i ve searched for food banks but I have none in my city or food charities ( Im not from the USA, im from a small town in Eastern Europe ). I kept praying through all this and asked God for help but even at church all they can help me with is prayers ( i ve hinted to a priest i m hungry and didnt eat and that i cant survive but he told me to just pray, and I did … and tried to find help but couldnt).
It took me 30 minutes to write this and i have so much anxiety my heart feels like it will explode, i ve always tried to be strong but I have no physical way to survive on nothing until the end of the month and have no way of getting help while i work and study. Even today i asked a colleague to borrow me some money but he made me feel bad for asking.
I am all alone in this, and I honestly plan on ending my life tonight . Maybe I did something bad for God to give me all these hardships, i miss my family so much and maybe this is the answer to seeing them again, my mom was my rock, my dad too, and now in all alone and help less.
Im sorry if this is a sensitive topic and maybe not the right place, but I finally feel a bit better for taking this decision and the mental and physical pain from not eating, stomach acid reflux on my ulcers…. I just feel too tired .
Thank you for reading .
I ve lost my mom 2 years ago, and 3 months ago my father passed away after a long battle with lung cancer . I did everything I could to help care for him but it was too late, he had metastasis as well.
To manage my dad took out a huge loan from the bank and because i used to work part time I cosigned the loan.
Im 24 , im in debt up to my ears, I literally cant borrow more from anywhere, I have left for this month under 2 euros and i just finished the last of my food this morning. I sold everything valuable I could except this phone because I need it for University .
The last of my money went on rent, dad didnt have anything to leave me, i wish he would have never went away, my mom too.
I didnt sleep last night, im depressed I dont know what to do or how to survive, i got hired again at the begining of the month, and even if its really hard im managing it a long with my university exams. The only problem is I get paid on the 2 nd of November . I cant survive for a month on basically nothing.
I have no friends I can rely on or ask for help, i cant get a cash advance at work because I just got hired , i cant borrow more from the bank, i ve searched for food banks but I have none in my city or food charities ( Im not from the USA, im from a small town in Eastern Europe ). I kept praying through all this and asked God for help but even at church all they can help me with is prayers ( i ve hinted to a priest i m hungry and didnt eat and that i cant survive but he told me to just pray, and I did … and tried to find help but couldnt).
It took me 30 minutes to write this and i have so much anxiety my heart feels like it will explode, i ve always tried to be strong but I have no physical way to survive on nothing until the end of the month and have no way of getting help while i work and study. Even today i asked a colleague to borrow me some money but he made me feel bad for asking.
I am all alone in this, and I honestly plan on ending my life tonight . Maybe I did something bad for God to give me all these hardships, i miss my family so much and maybe this is the answer to seeing them again, my mom was my rock, my dad too, and now in all alone and help less.
Im sorry if this is a sensitive topic and maybe not the right place, but I finally feel a bit better for taking this decision and the mental and physical pain from not eating, stomach acid reflux on my ulcers…. I just feel too tired .
Thank you for reading .
