Prayers for my weight loss and limited mobility

So finally after years and years of trying I got down from nearly 450 pounds to 408 pounds so far all without bariatric surgery or without weight loss medication and all with the Lords help and with eating less and eating a somewhat healthy diet. Let's face it, I still eat subway nearly 4x a week I order out for pizza 3-4x a month I eat burger King and have a whopper maybe once a month. I dont eat totally healthy in fact my sodium consumption is ridiculous but its going to be when you're low class and all you can afford are high sodium foods. Hey at least i eat fresh spinach everyday because spinach is $2 for a big container of it!

In all seriousness though? Despite losing weight I still can't move around very much and I still can't do very much my muscles are still very weak from my blood clots that should have killed me 3 years ago and the lithium poisoning that left me nearly crippled months before the blood clots happened. Im still a stroke or heart attack waiting to happen. Im a year away from hitting my 40th birthday and even if i lose a good 100-150 pounds by my 40th which is very possible at the rate im going im still very weak and im afraid of a stroke or heart attack that could leave me crippled permanently which at my age and my weight is a very real possibility. I've been obese ever since I was a child in the second grade and ive been over 350 pounds for almost 15 years now and over 200 pounds since my 13th-14th birthday. So ive always been a big guy. Even when I was first born I was a nearly 12 pound baby. So ive always been big.

Even when I reach my goal weight of like 280 pounds or so im still going to be a big guy. Im just not going to look like a blue whale anymore. But honestly? Id like prayer that I not only lose the weight I need to lose and that its successful so that I can live as long of a life as humanly possible but also that I dont live the rest of my life as a vegetable. I dont care if I have to live the rest of my life on a cane or walker but I want to be able to stand still for longer than 1-2 minutes at a time I want to be able to walk longer than 2-3 minutes. I want to be mobile and active. I dont care if my brain is shot but I want to be able to walk at least! Being a vegetable stuck sitting 24 hours a day having to sit here and only being able to get up to use the restroom and do occasional exercises just isnt cutting it for me and im just afraid losing another 100 pounds wont do that for me. But... maybe im wrong. So let's pray together that not only will I be able to lose the weight that I need to lose like whats been happening but also that, im also not a vegetable afterwards and hopefully I don't have stroke along the way that just permanently cripples me to the point where I can't do anything...

linux.poet said:

Dear Lord,
I pray for Your hand of healing for Neostar. I pray for Your hand of preservation on his body as well, that he may be able to keep alive long enough to lose the weight, and be able to walk reasonable distances again.
In Christ’s Name,
Amen

(I thought going to the grocery store was cheaper than eating out. Subway is like $7 for a 6 inch sandwich that feeds you for 1 day. Costco sells a whole chicken for $5 that you can microwave and eat, spring mix is $2.32, 2 tomatoes are $1.61, balsamic salad dressing is $2, that feeds me for 5 days. 10.93/5 = $2.18 per day. Even if you had to pay $10 for the cooked chicken, $3.18 per day is still less money than Subway. And I’m dead broke, so guess what I eat every week?)

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Depends what you buy at the grocery store I was talking about like fruits and stuff being expensive and we couldn't afford them. We live in New York so everything here is jacked up in price. Blueberries even in season now are like $5.50 for 18 oz of them and since I'm a big guy I eat a lot of blueberries so my wife only takes home about $640-$650 a week working full time at Walmart. I'm not getting any money at all anymore since my wife makes too much for me to qualify for SSI anymore. So we bring in about $40,000 a year. We're not poverty by far anymore but we're not doing super well either. New York is a very expensive state to live in thanks to NYC. But she does get discounts at subway which is why I eat so many 6 inches there because our subway is at our Walmart. I can stop eating subway subs they are loaded with sodium anyway we can try buying no sugar added no salt added canned fruit that's usually cheaper than fresh fruit. And like I said before spinach is cheap here in NY. But most other health food here in NY? It's just crazy and it's no wonder our minimum wage is like $16, $17 an hour it's not nearly high enough to pay for the ridiculous prices of things!