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I recently listened to this Ask Pastor John (APJ) episode titled, "Is My Repentance Real If I Keep Committing the Same Sin," from John Piper on Desiring God. Now, I have Religious OCD (ROCD)/Scrupulosity, and it causes me to catastrophically interpret religious texts (e.g. the Bible, Christian articles and podcasts, etc.). Kindly listen to the whole episode before answering in this thread.
In the mentioned APJ podcast, Piper mentioned that there are two kinds of confessions: a "superficial" confession, and a "no hypocrisy" confession. The "superficial" confession expresses guilt and sorrow for sinning, but underneath there is the quiet assumption that this sin is inevitable (i.e. having a fatalistic attitude towards besetting sins). The "no hypocrisy" confession also expresses guilt and sorrow for sinning, but it seeks "out whatever ways are going to help you put this sin to death." Now I have experienced both kinds of confessions in the past against a besetting sin I am facing. And thank God, this APJ episode helped me to realize that I had a fatalistic attitude towards this besetting sin.
Towards the end of the podcast, Piper quoted 1 John 1:9 (NKJV, emphasis mine): If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. Piper then said, "And that confession right there [i.e. the one in 1 John 1:9], I think, means real confession." I assume that he meant that the verse in 1 John 1:9 refers to the "no hypocrisy" confession. Does this mean that if I do not "seek out whatever ways are going to help [me] put this sin to death (i.e. go all out - and trust me, going all out will have to mean that my OCD mind will find tons of ways to harm myself psychologically in order to get myself forgiven everytime I commit a sin)" I am not forgiven? Please help me figure this out. Thank you so much.
In the mentioned APJ podcast, Piper mentioned that there are two kinds of confessions: a "superficial" confession, and a "no hypocrisy" confession. The "superficial" confession expresses guilt and sorrow for sinning, but underneath there is the quiet assumption that this sin is inevitable (i.e. having a fatalistic attitude towards besetting sins). The "no hypocrisy" confession also expresses guilt and sorrow for sinning, but it seeks "out whatever ways are going to help you put this sin to death." Now I have experienced both kinds of confessions in the past against a besetting sin I am facing. And thank God, this APJ episode helped me to realize that I had a fatalistic attitude towards this besetting sin.
Towards the end of the podcast, Piper quoted 1 John 1:9 (NKJV, emphasis mine): If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. Piper then said, "And that confession right there [i.e. the one in 1 John 1:9], I think, means real confession." I assume that he meant that the verse in 1 John 1:9 refers to the "no hypocrisy" confession. Does this mean that if I do not "seek out whatever ways are going to help [me] put this sin to death (i.e. go all out - and trust me, going all out will have to mean that my OCD mind will find tons of ways to harm myself psychologically in order to get myself forgiven everytime I commit a sin)" I am not forgiven? Please help me figure this out. Thank you so much.