So I was talking with the Holy Spirit and felt His presence and He was comforting me with tears. It was a decent time considering the bad thoughts I had today.
But then another bad thought popped into my mind and I thought it by accident. It was "I hate the Holy Spirit" and I immediately felt this bad feeling physically. Now He is not answering my prayers anymore and it feels like I am praying to a brick wall. Idk if I just blasphemed Him in my mind by accident, I didn't mean to do it and obviously I do not hate Him at all, on the contrary I love Him a lot. He was just being so nice to me and I go and do this I hate myself.
I feel terrible right now, but I should feel worse not sure why I am not.
Is this it for me? Did I finally mess up beyond redemption?
But then another bad thought popped into my mind and I thought it by accident. It was "I hate the Holy Spirit" and I immediately felt this bad feeling physically. Now He is not answering my prayers anymore and it feels like I am praying to a brick wall. Idk if I just blasphemed Him in my mind by accident, I didn't mean to do it and obviously I do not hate Him at all, on the contrary I love Him a lot. He was just being so nice to me and I go and do this I hate myself.
I feel terrible right now, but I should feel worse not sure why I am not.
Is this it for me? Did I finally mess up beyond redemption?