- May 21, 2019
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- Married
For nearly two years now, my husband's relationship with God or desire for one has been about as reliable as my phone signal when I'm driving home from work, down that long coastal road in the middle of nowhere.
"Where did it go?" "Oh! there it is... ugh it's cutting out again!?" "Hello? I can't hear you?"
"Wait it says I have a signal.... oh wait I guess I don't it says 1-X"
It's like sometimes we say a prayer together, and it sounds like he's definitely in touch with God, but other times he will outrightly say "I'm not sure what I believe right now".
This faith-deficit started after a rough patch in our marriage, so I feel partially responsible.
And I've tried EVERYTHING.
I've, of course, prayed. I've talked to him lovingly about it. I've talked to him pleadingly, with anxiety about it. I've tried putting my foot down, saying "I married a Christian. A Christian husband is what I desire. I need a leader. I know it's in there, please get in touch with Him". I've tried being softer, saying "I will always love you, even if you hate God". It's true, I would.
I've tried leaving it alone. His mom has also tried talking to him.
Nothing seems to get through,
and I am aware that if I bother him enough, he could just start claiming he resolved it to appease me.
I personally haven't lost faith though. In God or in my husband's deep-down "roots".
My prayer is for him to come 'round before this year closes, by Christmas perhaps,
and have him be eager to go to the Christmas Eve service, eager to pray with me,
eager to talk about Jesus on Christmas.
But if not that, I DEFINITELY have a goal to help him find that faith by Easter.
The church we are going to is planning a HUGE service that will take up a
WHOLE AMPHITHEATER on Good Friday.
And they don't know if they will even be able to make that work out,
but they have faith that it will
so I'm having faith that by then, he will be seeking Christ,
talking about it, praying with me, and looking forward to that event.
For the right reasons.
I'm planning to wear a special dress just for the occasion and take that day off work.
Also get a babysitter for the church service.
I wholeheartedly believe this can be resolved by then.
I don't know if it's wrong to set deadlines with God for a loved one's faith revival,
but I'm really hoping for him to come around, I miss when he had a good strong relationship with God. I, of course, didn't at that time. Now I'm ready for us to be on the same page.
I'm also ~very weary~ of toting the "spiritual load" for the whole family.
"Where did it go?" "Oh! there it is... ugh it's cutting out again!?" "Hello? I can't hear you?"
"Wait it says I have a signal.... oh wait I guess I don't it says 1-X"
It's like sometimes we say a prayer together, and it sounds like he's definitely in touch with God, but other times he will outrightly say "I'm not sure what I believe right now".
This faith-deficit started after a rough patch in our marriage, so I feel partially responsible.
And I've tried EVERYTHING.
I've, of course, prayed. I've talked to him lovingly about it. I've talked to him pleadingly, with anxiety about it. I've tried putting my foot down, saying "I married a Christian. A Christian husband is what I desire. I need a leader. I know it's in there, please get in touch with Him". I've tried being softer, saying "I will always love you, even if you hate God". It's true, I would.
I've tried leaving it alone. His mom has also tried talking to him.
Nothing seems to get through,
and I am aware that if I bother him enough, he could just start claiming he resolved it to appease me.
I personally haven't lost faith though. In God or in my husband's deep-down "roots".
My prayer is for him to come 'round before this year closes, by Christmas perhaps,
and have him be eager to go to the Christmas Eve service, eager to pray with me,
eager to talk about Jesus on Christmas.
But if not that, I DEFINITELY have a goal to help him find that faith by Easter.
The church we are going to is planning a HUGE service that will take up a
WHOLE AMPHITHEATER on Good Friday.
And they don't know if they will even be able to make that work out,
but they have faith that it will
so I'm having faith that by then, he will be seeking Christ,
talking about it, praying with me, and looking forward to that event.
For the right reasons.
I'm planning to wear a special dress just for the occasion and take that day off work.
Also get a babysitter for the church service.
I wholeheartedly believe this can be resolved by then.
I don't know if it's wrong to set deadlines with God for a loved one's faith revival,
but I'm really hoping for him to come around, I miss when he had a good strong relationship with God. I, of course, didn't at that time. Now I'm ready for us to be on the same page.
I'm also ~very weary~ of toting the "spiritual load" for the whole family.