how I can continue to believe in a Christian God.
You might not be thinking of God who sent His own Son to reach us and so suffer and die for us, so we may have eternal life and share with Jesus and one another in all the good of God.
And you might not be talking about the God who personally corrects us His children so we share in His own holiness in His love's "peaceable fruit of righteousness" > Hebrews 12:4-14.
And possibly you are not talking about our Heavenly Father who desires to personally rule every one of us > "in one body" > in His own peace >
"And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to which also you were called in one body; and be thankful." (Colossians 3:15)
And if you think you could give up on your faith, do you mean beliefs . . . or "faith working through love"? (in Galatians 5:6)
God is personal with us, "in our hearts" > Romans 5:5 says God shares His own love with us who are His children >
"Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us." (Romans 5:5)
So, have you experienced this God who is so deeply personal with every one of His children? Or, are you talking about some being that is theoretical and distant?? Satan is the one who is distant, and who has people in confusion and self-righteous criticizing and anger and arguing and frustration and slavery to dominating and dictatorial drives for pleasure and excitement . . . trying to use pleasure to keep them from feeling the misery and mess of their sin.
But Jesus gives us "rest for your souls," we have in Matthew 11:28-30.
I would not give up on this God, but trust Him to prove Himself to you, personally. But do know you will need to deny yourself > Luke 9:23-24. And we need to carry our cross of Jesus Christ's love having hope for any and all people > "if you love those who love you, what reward have you?" (in Matthew 5:46)
God wants us, also, to be so personally caring as family, while we reach with hope to others, that they may become adopted with us.
So, do you mean you want to give up on this???? Or, do we really need to give up on trusting Satan and his cruel stuff of fears and pleasure seeking which keep us weak so we can keep on suffering and struggling. With God, we can be snuggling