In my dreams gods given me messages of where I'm going if you believe in that. The dreams weren't nice. I missed life in them so much. In one of them I crawled through the swamp away from a compound full of other sinners who were so sad it made the vibe indescribable. I cried in that dream. The area felt like from another world. Another one is at the bottom of a lake of lava in a bubble next to other people. I wasnt the best person in this life but its unfair how I was made to be a sinner. Its sad my friend said he had a dream bowing down to jesus alongside a load of other people... it gave me this weird feeling because I'm gonna be in another world through a portal far away unable to come back again for eternity. While my friends with jesus. It hurts. It sucks. This life is so emotionally numb then I'm just gonna go to a bad afterlife. You won't black me out when I die. Please jesus please please I've experienced heaven when I younger it's not fair to know what it's like and not get to go. Please pray to jesus to just forgive this sinners sins and to give me a place in heaven.