So.. a brief background:
My mom is in the healthcare field, career-wise. My dad was a dentist. All they've ever known has to do with health care. And of course, they pushed that onto me when I was in highschool (which is when most kids are still trying to figure out what they want to do).
Here's the thing though, I never was remotely interested in healthcare. They wanted me to be a nurse or something related.
So fast-forward-- now, having recently turned 30, I am a nurse AND a psw (personal support worker). Im not happy. As great and rewarding as these jobs are, my heart is just not in it. I have had to pay my tuition and endure classes that I was not interested in and dreaded. Don't get me wrong, I am very thankful for these jobs. God has helped me through those courses through tears and feeling a bit of resentment towards my mom (who really pushed me to do a dream job she wanted for herself) It truly is a miracle I am even a nurse as my grades in highschool were so bad I had to upgrade the marks in college (through a special course)
I have "grown to (like?) tolerate" my jobs I guess..but again, my heart is not there.
So the advice I am seeking is..
Do i pursue my dream while doing these 2 jobs I currently am blessed with or just suck it up and do the jobs im currently in for the rest of my life and live in complete regret, bitterness, sadness, and feeling like.."what if i actually had the courage to do what I wanted"?
You may be wondering, at this point, what my dream is. I feel a bit reluctant to share it as i dont want the dream to be shot down, be criticized in comparison with what in doing now (job wise), or laughed at.
I want to be an auto-detailer. Basically a person who cleans cars (interior mostly as opposed to exterior (car washing and/or polishing). I want to start my own business. Ive bought 90% of the supplies needed, and ive practiced on my own car and my mom's. (She actually likes when i clean her car) but doesnt really know how interested I am in it.
Should i pursue the dream, start a business, see what happens.. or just.
Not bother. I want to repeat that I am grateful for my current jobs. I enjoy interacting with the elderly, listening to their stories.. i just feel like ive wasted my years doing something i never was passionate about.
Thanks for reading this far.
My mom is in the healthcare field, career-wise. My dad was a dentist. All they've ever known has to do with health care. And of course, they pushed that onto me when I was in highschool (which is when most kids are still trying to figure out what they want to do).
Here's the thing though, I never was remotely interested in healthcare. They wanted me to be a nurse or something related.
So fast-forward-- now, having recently turned 30, I am a nurse AND a psw (personal support worker). Im not happy. As great and rewarding as these jobs are, my heart is just not in it. I have had to pay my tuition and endure classes that I was not interested in and dreaded. Don't get me wrong, I am very thankful for these jobs. God has helped me through those courses through tears and feeling a bit of resentment towards my mom (who really pushed me to do a dream job she wanted for herself) It truly is a miracle I am even a nurse as my grades in highschool were so bad I had to upgrade the marks in college (through a special course)
I have "grown to (like?) tolerate" my jobs I guess..but again, my heart is not there.
So the advice I am seeking is..
Do i pursue my dream while doing these 2 jobs I currently am blessed with or just suck it up and do the jobs im currently in for the rest of my life and live in complete regret, bitterness, sadness, and feeling like.."what if i actually had the courage to do what I wanted"?
You may be wondering, at this point, what my dream is. I feel a bit reluctant to share it as i dont want the dream to be shot down, be criticized in comparison with what in doing now (job wise), or laughed at.
I want to be an auto-detailer. Basically a person who cleans cars (interior mostly as opposed to exterior (car washing and/or polishing). I want to start my own business. Ive bought 90% of the supplies needed, and ive practiced on my own car and my mom's. (She actually likes when i clean her car) but doesnt really know how interested I am in it.
Should i pursue the dream, start a business, see what happens.. or just.
Not bother. I want to repeat that I am grateful for my current jobs. I enjoy interacting with the elderly, listening to their stories.. i just feel like ive wasted my years doing something i never was passionate about.
Thanks for reading this far.