A little bit of a preface: I was not raised and am not Christian, I know a lot about it as I have a large interest in religion. For all intents and purposes I consider myself pagan. I do not want to be disrespectful in how I approach God and am trying my best to respect Him in the way I talk about Him.
I am scared by the sudden nature of these thoughts I've been having, and would like a bit of guidance from the Christian community instead of seeking help from my friends who may look down on Christianity as a whole.
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Recently I have been having a lot of thoughts against my will - about God. E.g., I think or almost catch myself saying "God gave us [this/that]." "We can thank God for that." I think about turning to God when I have trouble I feel I can't get out of unaided. I have thought about praying.
I have no Christian friends (at least none who would identify themselves as so though believe in The God), nor have I been around a stimulus that would promote these thoughts.
In a lot of forms of paganism, we are taught that other gods may send us signs, such as words, seeing specific animals, colours, etc. I don't know if this is a sign from a god and if it is I believe it to be God Himself, but I don't know.
In a lot of forms of paganism, we are taught gods may send us signs that they want to work with us. I do not know if this is a sign from God Himself, or if he would call me to Him seeing as I come from a less than Christian background. I do not think I am a model Christian in any sense, so I don't want to jump the gun, as I have not been in Christianity I don't know how receptive He would be of someone like me converting.
I suppose what I'm asking is, has anybody felt like they were reached out to by God, instead of seeking him out yourself? Does this sound like it could be God Himself calling me to Him? Should I try a "wait and see" tactic and if the "call" goes away, brush it off as an 'experience'?
I am scared by the sudden nature of these thoughts I've been having, and would like a bit of guidance from the Christian community instead of seeking help from my friends who may look down on Christianity as a whole.
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Recently I have been having a lot of thoughts against my will - about God. E.g., I think or almost catch myself saying "God gave us [this/that]." "We can thank God for that." I think about turning to God when I have trouble I feel I can't get out of unaided. I have thought about praying.
I have no Christian friends (at least none who would identify themselves as so though believe in The God), nor have I been around a stimulus that would promote these thoughts.
In a lot of forms of paganism, we are taught that other gods may send us signs, such as words, seeing specific animals, colours, etc. I don't know if this is a sign from a god and if it is I believe it to be God Himself, but I don't know.
In a lot of forms of paganism, we are taught gods may send us signs that they want to work with us. I do not know if this is a sign from God Himself, or if he would call me to Him seeing as I come from a less than Christian background. I do not think I am a model Christian in any sense, so I don't want to jump the gun, as I have not been in Christianity I don't know how receptive He would be of someone like me converting.
I suppose what I'm asking is, has anybody felt like they were reached out to by God, instead of seeking him out yourself? Does this sound like it could be God Himself calling me to Him? Should I try a "wait and see" tactic and if the "call" goes away, brush it off as an 'experience'?