I have a problem. I have had a very hard time with inappropriate contentography in the past and I have been trying to get off of it for the past few years. I'm clean for a few months now and recently made a commitment towards God to keep my heart and my mind pure as far as sexual immorality goes. I said I would save all sexual arousal and attraction for my spouse to the best of my ability. The problem is that I've been wanting to research proper sexuality between a man and a woman in the Bible and wanted to know much more but the more I read, the more I feel like I'm giving in to my sexual curiosity and giving into lascivious desires. I feel like the more I read, the more I commit sin because of what my flesh feels, but I also feel if I don't read, it's willing ignorance and also sin.
When old temptations got into my head earlier this night, I fought them off but still didn't know what exactly was right for a man to want. God immediately told me that if I want the solution, then go find it in His word. This leaves me at this particular crossroads. I remembered feeling contrite about my past attitudes towards my former sins and "what happened to fleeing sexual immorality at any cost". I don't know what to think. The more I look for the solutions to my sin in The Bible, the more I feel enticed to think about it. I don't know what to do. I want to have a righteous attitude towards male sexuality and feel I'm doing this more for her sake than mine. Suggestions?
When old temptations got into my head earlier this night, I fought them off but still didn't know what exactly was right for a man to want. God immediately told me that if I want the solution, then go find it in His word. This leaves me at this particular crossroads. I remembered feeling contrite about my past attitudes towards my former sins and "what happened to fleeing sexual immorality at any cost". I don't know what to think. The more I look for the solutions to my sin in The Bible, the more I feel enticed to think about it. I don't know what to do. I want to have a righteous attitude towards male sexuality and feel I'm doing this more for her sake than mine. Suggestions?
