- Jul 26, 2018
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- Pentecostal
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- Married
Hi, I've been dealing with anxiety since 2012. My anxiety was at an all time high for about 7 months. I could not be alone, I could not drive, I lost my job. My anxiety revolved around death. That I was going to die or something was going to happen to me. I was just in a constant state of panic and would even have images pop in my head of possession. For 7 months I battled this with the help of pastors and prayer warriors. I have had small attacks here and there but nothing I could not get over. Recently, my anxiety is on the rise again. Thoughts of an evil spirit trying to enter my body and take over has been coming to my mind a lot. So much, that I cry and pray to God to help me with these thoughts, feelings and images. I am not where I should be in my walk with Christ. But I am taking the steps to become closer to him. I am reading my Bible and trying to memorize the verses I read about fear and anxiety. I pray before I read the Bible and after. I was told these thoughts are all in my mind and its a battle of my mind. When these thoughts and feelings come, I pray and recite verses but my mind gets so cloudy I cannot even think. I just cry. My boss said that I should probably look into taking medication as it will help. I feel like If I do take medication, I am telling God that I have no faith in him to help me through this and that I don't believe he will bring me through this. I don't like the feelings I get when my anxiety comes nor the thoughts. I took medicine for about a week when I first got my anxiety and I felt like I was in a cloudy drug bubble. I don't want to feel that way..I want to feel normal. I want to be able to attend church and not have thoughts of possession coming into my mind while I try to listen to the Word or while I am trying to worship. I've been talking to several pastors and each tell me that possession cannot occur as I am a Child of God. God is always with me and he is protecting me. These spirits cannot come in unless I am doing things to invite them in or invite them in. I tell myself this over and over and it feels like the feelings come on stronger. Thus my thought of taking medication as there is some type of in-balance in my mind that will not let me concentrate. Has anyone experienced something like this? Am I letting God down if I take medication to help ease my anxiety?