Doubting my salvation.

Legionwrex said:

But didn't you deny the very Existence of Adam and the Fall of Man? You do realize that is Biblical truth, right? If I'm confused, please tell me, but I've seen some of the things you've said on different forums.

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Legionwrex said:

But didn't you deny the very Existence of Adam and the Fall of Man?

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Legionwrex said:

Hello. I'm a 15 year old male who has been having overwhelming feelings of hopelessness and depression about my salvation. I was born into a Christian house, but it wasn't until I was 12 or so that these fears and doubts set in. For the past 3 years they have dominated my life.

I am unable to feel sorrow for my sins. I know they are wrong, but I feel nothing. I fear I am self-righteous, I don't think I love God, I'm not sure if I have saving faith, I'm pretty sure I'm hard hearted, and I'm pretty sure the only reason I'm trying so hard to be saved is that I'm scared of Hell.

I know salvation comes from trusting Jesus, but so many people say that you have to be sorry, that you have to repent of all sins, etc.

I pray that God gives me Godly sorrow and helps me with all of these problems and that he gives me faith, but nothing happens. I feel like God isn't listening and doesn't love me nor does he want to save me. I feel like he is playing some sick joke on me by showing me how condemned and hopeless I am, and showing me the way out, but he won't provide me with the means to get there.

I see all these stories about former prostitutes and murders who have an instant conversion and love Jesus and hate sin. Why is it so easy for them?

Even as I type this now I feel like I am sinning by telling you people instead of God. But I don't know what to do.

I'm tired of waiting for God to give me Godly Sorrow and regenerate me. I have been waiting for years now. I know I deserve hell, but I still don't want to go there.

Any advice would be appreciated.

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