Thank you for the warm welcome and advice you all have given me! Lately, I have been working on being more positive and trying to teach myself new things but I definitely do get discouraged easily, but one step at a time. I took the advice many of you gave me and I have been reading passages from the bible every single day and trying to read books because I used to be love reading and I am trying to do things that remind me of happier times. The hardest thing to do is remain positive and happy and tonight is honestly one of those nights where it is harder then most, I dont want to sound ungrateful, but I dream and hope for the night where I will fall asleep feeling blissfully happy and wake up feeling incredibly blessed. For now it is quite a challenge, but I am trying to get better and become a better person.