Today was an harsh day for me. It doesn't take much. Had a truck unloading cars in front of my garage, which occurs plenty of times. I needed to go out and had the car on the street just antecipating someone parking the car or truck in front of the gate. Ended up having an argument with the driver and him threatning not to take the car out and that I was going out on purpose just to anoy him. I went to do my business and said that I would be right back and he said he wouldn't remove the truck then. When I came back I had to call the police but he did his business faster than them... (I doubt the police came even). Then I nave this awful neighbour who has offended my family since we moved here and she was watching the whole scene from her top floor, just staring and prying on what I went to do. I ended up asking if she'd like to come down and take a better look.
In the end I was so upset with all of this that I think if it's the devil's plan just to push me into confrontation. And then I think if I believe the devil is there so is God. But all this destroys me inside. My anxiety because of my illness was through the roof today. I needed to get out and didn't know when and there were always cars parked in front of the garage. If I believe the devil places these traps, where is God?
In the end I was so upset with all of this that I think if it's the devil's plan just to push me into confrontation. And then I think if I believe the devil is there so is God. But all this destroys me inside. My anxiety because of my illness was through the roof today. I needed to get out and didn't know when and there were always cars parked in front of the garage. If I believe the devil places these traps, where is God?
