I figured out something that has been going on in my life for a really long time... I knew it was there but I didn't know how to explain it or express it and the reason why I had trouble with learning and other things, I wish i learned about this long time ago. I have been struggling with dissociation for almost all of my life, 29 years, I have ptsd because of the trauma caused by my dad. A few months ago, an event triggered my dissociation, I thought my dad was getting better with his anger problems in the past but I was wrong. I do love him but I can't be living with him anymore, so I did move out but the last few weeks its been getting worst. I need prayer, direction, and anything that God will provide. I need hope again because I dont trust men and I am confused how to interact with my brothers. Everyone is distant and even I am distant. I want to go to a therapist. I lost interest in the things I love to do, I really want to feel excited again and I do want to be in a relationship in the future . Thank you for your prayers and support
