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Its a fight it really is. Time to ask for fellow soldiers to help me to fight back. I don't want these kinds of thoughts and impulses. They are nothing but darkness whispering to me. I'm feeling triggered and spent all night watching videos of people taking their lives on youtube, and are not illegal but were about the topic.
It started by being vulnerable, reading someones post, watching the videos and then Satan inviting me by tickling my ear with invitations to do the same.
I'm beaten down and lacking in deep restorative sleep. Too many problems and the Prince of darkness saw an opening.
I badly need to brighten up, and take a break.
Thank you CF for providing this platform for reaching out.
It started by being vulnerable, reading someones post, watching the videos and then Satan inviting me by tickling my ear with invitations to do the same.
I'm beaten down and lacking in deep restorative sleep. Too many problems and the Prince of darkness saw an opening.
I badly need to brighten up, and take a break.
Thank you CF for providing this platform for reaching out.
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