I'm a slow thinker, I tried giving up the "too hard to try" mentality and actually trying there was success but I backslided. failed couple times and tried again. Backslided because I was becoming lazy again... It's gruellingly hard to pick up the bible and read more than 2 pages a day because I'm slow as hell at processing, it takes forever to think something through, it's hard to be productive, it's hard to read the bible. At this rate it will take like a year to read proverbs. Life isn't fair and I think I've accepted that. Yes I was born this way and it's gonna be hard, even god tapped my left leg when I asked if it was gonna be hard as hell(left leg is yes right is no) it would be a miracle if I could process faster because I easily get distracted and stop reading the bible or get sidetracked. If I can't have this 1 miracle then that's fine it's just the way life is. If I give up that's what I get. I'm fine with it being unfair for me and easier for others, I'll probably fail because I'm leaning on the side of giving up. Maybe there a drug that will make me think faster that can be prescribed. Ps sorry to those who see me post prayer requests none stop, I'm pretty conceited n foolish if people don't like me I can't blame them.