Hi I am sorry for all the posts but I have been listening to more sermons and it struck a nerve again. One of the people they mentioned in the sermon sounded a lot like my story so I got a little worried. Ok maybe a little backstory is in order.
After my moms murder when I was 10, I walked the aisle and got saved, then later baptized. Well a few years later I had to move in with my dad (I had been living with my grandmother). Anyway I had to quit the Church because my dad lived in town. I should have found another Church that I could go to but I didn't.
I got mixed up in sort of the wrong crowd and I had a lot of anger issues and I did not turn the other cheek as I should have. I got into some fights and wasn't a very good Christian as a teen. Then I went into the army and still did not go to Church and did some drinking. Later into my 30s I got busy trying to raise my kids and did not go then either.
Over the years I still prayed to God and I still felt like He was in my life but I wasn't involved in the Church. I guess I was just sort of in limbo. Well this sermon mentioned the people who say "Lord Lord, and God says depart from me I never knew you". I don't want to be one of those people, so I prayed the sinners prayer several times over the years to make sure that I really am saved.
Anyway then I thought I heard something a long time ago that you had to do it in public (like walking the aisle). Does it have to be in public or can you do it at home in private? I am going to try a new Church tomorrow but I don't even know if its a good one yet so I would rather not walk the aisle till I am at least comfortable there. Plus with my anxiety its going to be really hard for me to do. So does it have to be done in public or can you do it in private?
After my moms murder when I was 10, I walked the aisle and got saved, then later baptized. Well a few years later I had to move in with my dad (I had been living with my grandmother). Anyway I had to quit the Church because my dad lived in town. I should have found another Church that I could go to but I didn't.
I got mixed up in sort of the wrong crowd and I had a lot of anger issues and I did not turn the other cheek as I should have. I got into some fights and wasn't a very good Christian as a teen. Then I went into the army and still did not go to Church and did some drinking. Later into my 30s I got busy trying to raise my kids and did not go then either.
Over the years I still prayed to God and I still felt like He was in my life but I wasn't involved in the Church. I guess I was just sort of in limbo. Well this sermon mentioned the people who say "Lord Lord, and God says depart from me I never knew you". I don't want to be one of those people, so I prayed the sinners prayer several times over the years to make sure that I really am saved.
Anyway then I thought I heard something a long time ago that you had to do it in public (like walking the aisle). Does it have to be in public or can you do it at home in private? I am going to try a new Church tomorrow but I don't even know if its a good one yet so I would rather not walk the aisle till I am at least comfortable there. Plus with my anxiety its going to be really hard for me to do. So does it have to be done in public or can you do it in private?