Dark Dark Night of the Soul.
Anybody ever been there?
Yes, I've been through this, as an unbeliever seeking God. I was brought to the lowest of low points before I could receive Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior.
I've been a Christian for six years now, and what I can testify about in regards to a dark night is this; God has been changing the way that He reveals Himself to me. At first, things were more obvious and dramatic; now, although I see evidence of God in my life every single day, it is like the volume has been turned down so to speak. I don't feel the connection as I did before, which has forced me to deepen my trust in Him.
Paul went through a dark night of the soul:
2 Corinthians 1:8-11
8 For we do not want you to be ignorant, brethren, of our trouble which came to us in Asia: that we were burdened beyond measure, above strength, so that we despaired even of life. 9 Yes, we had the sentence of death in ourselves, that we should not trust in ourselves but in God who raises the dead, 10 who delivered us from so great a death, and does deliver us; in whom we trust that He will still deliver
us, 11 you also helping together in prayer for us, that thanks may be given by many persons on our behalf for the gift
granted to us through many.
A key point to this is prayer, not just our prayers, but the prayers of our brothers and sisters in Christ. Meaning, we need to be in fellowship and praying together. The word says to trade the spirit of heaviness for the garment of praise. Praise and worship in dark times I believe will always touch the heart of God, because the word says that a broken and contrite heart He will not despise.
Also, this can be a very selfish time where we are hurt because God isn't doing what we think He should be doing, rather than seeking His face about how we should be responding to what He is doing. As long as we have a selfish perspective we will not learn the lesson He is wanting to teach us. God bless, I will pray for the light to shine and lead you forward.
Psalm 34:18
The LORD
is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.