I have to take a long flight over the Atlantic on the 22nd.
I was originally supposed to take it in Oct, then in Dec, then a month ago, and now on the 22nd of May.
I keep bumping the date forward because when i get close to the day of departure the panic begins.
I have flown across the Atlantic, 2x in the last 4 years.
The last time was by myself and i literally was in the bathroom crying and shaking or i was walking the dark aisles from 1am - 5am swearing an oath to myself that i would never ever do it again.
And yep, i know about Xanax and had a mouthful both times.
All it does is make me drunk and kinda high, but the fear inside is undiminished.
Is there any thing that will help me get on the plane and deal with this so that i am not going out of my mind while im flying?
And oddly enough, im good with takeoffs and landings.
But when im in the air and i realize i cant get off for 12 hrs the incredible inner torture begins.
And no, i have no helper this time but i would almost buy one if i could find one.
And i have Xanax...but, as i said....these type drugs dont solve the inner panic.
any suggestions?
as i have to make this trip.
I was originally supposed to take it in Oct, then in Dec, then a month ago, and now on the 22nd of May.
I keep bumping the date forward because when i get close to the day of departure the panic begins.
I have flown across the Atlantic, 2x in the last 4 years.
The last time was by myself and i literally was in the bathroom crying and shaking or i was walking the dark aisles from 1am - 5am swearing an oath to myself that i would never ever do it again.
And yep, i know about Xanax and had a mouthful both times.
All it does is make me drunk and kinda high, but the fear inside is undiminished.
Is there any thing that will help me get on the plane and deal with this so that i am not going out of my mind while im flying?
And oddly enough, im good with takeoffs and landings.
But when im in the air and i realize i cant get off for 12 hrs the incredible inner torture begins.
And no, i have no helper this time but i would almost buy one if i could find one.
And i have Xanax...but, as i said....these type drugs dont solve the inner panic.
any suggestions?
as i have to make this trip.
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