I just started realizing that the only person she ever cared about was herself.
She didn't try to be a mother to me and my brother our whole lives. We didn't have fathers that took care of us either, they abandoned us...The only people that "raised" my brother and I were my grandparents..but since they were old, even they couldn't do a lot to teach my brother and I important life lessons or help with school, even though I'm thankful for them because they did more than my mother ever did for us. When I was a teenager I was okay with my mom being that way because I had my freedom to do whatever I wanted, since she didn't care...once I started growing older I started realizing how important it was to have a mother that cared enough to push me in school. I've wasted a lot of time doing whatever I wanted instead of being serious about my future.
I have always been angry at my mother. I wasn't able to learn any important lessons from life, I was socially awkward because I wasn't sure who I was, and I still have trouble knowing what I want out of life.
When I was little I would even imagine what it would be like to have a real mother that cared for me. I had a mother, but she was never a mother and still isn't. I feel extremely sad now because I've realized how important a mother/father figure is in someones life. It's very important to have one or both to help build the child's personality and psyche. So much time has been wasted....now I have no one to blame but myself, since I'm all grown up.
The important lesson I learned is that when I have a child, I will be there for him/her through everything no matter what.
She didn't try to be a mother to me and my brother our whole lives. We didn't have fathers that took care of us either, they abandoned us...The only people that "raised" my brother and I were my grandparents..but since they were old, even they couldn't do a lot to teach my brother and I important life lessons or help with school, even though I'm thankful for them because they did more than my mother ever did for us. When I was a teenager I was okay with my mom being that way because I had my freedom to do whatever I wanted, since she didn't care...once I started growing older I started realizing how important it was to have a mother that cared enough to push me in school. I've wasted a lot of time doing whatever I wanted instead of being serious about my future.
I have always been angry at my mother. I wasn't able to learn any important lessons from life, I was socially awkward because I wasn't sure who I was, and I still have trouble knowing what I want out of life.
When I was little I would even imagine what it would be like to have a real mother that cared for me. I had a mother, but she was never a mother and still isn't. I feel extremely sad now because I've realized how important a mother/father figure is in someones life. It's very important to have one or both to help build the child's personality and psyche. So much time has been wasted....now I have no one to blame but myself, since I'm all grown up.
The important lesson I learned is that when I have a child, I will be there for him/her through everything no matter what.