Been smoking for about 25 years im 38 now Weed pretty much ruined my life but i found a new beginning with jesus but i cant seem to stop smoking. I suffered from depression but jesus to that away and anxiety i get a little not as much as before I stopped seeing men cause all they want is sex and im working on stopping the cursing but my god why cant i stop smoking weed. Im so depressed now cause im disappointing god think my depressions comming back I just keep disappointing him Im a loner pretty much and kinda seclude myself Im smoking now crying but i dont know I all my sisters smoke too we all get together and smoke but i preach to them about jesus and salvation but i just read that preaching while high is not good cause thats showing that the devil still has authority over my life which is just sickning Dont know why im writing here but i guess its just to see what you guys have to say or think maybe something will trigger something in me who knows. Im not gonna say anything about jesus until i stop smoking well i cant help it i have to talk about him to everyone but ok im done let me stop before i keep on babbling.