Monica child of God 1
strives to live eschatologically
Honestly I am just overwhelmed as to how difficult Orthodoxy is and a bit freaked-out about it.
Just know that you're not expected to do everything perfectly. Orthopraxis isn't about getting the task right. The task is just what helps you get closer to the goal, which is union with God. And union with God is never finished because God is infinite and we are finite.
So don't get caught up in the tasks and whether you can do it. Fast as best you can. If you break the fast, confess it and move on. If you blow the fast, there will be another one in a few weeks or months. Pray as best as you can, etc.
Abba Lot went to see Abba Joseph and said to him, `Abba, as far as I can I say my little office, I fast a little, I pray and meditate, I live in peace and as far as I can, I purify my thoughts. What else can I do?" Then the old man stood up and stretched his hands towards heaven. His fingers became like ten lamps of fire and he said to him, "If you will, you can become all flame!"
A young man once asked a monk, What do you do in the monastery all day? The monk replied, We fall down, and get up, and fall down and get up, and fall down and get up again.
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