Catherineanne
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- Sep 1, 2004
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It has been a series of ups and downs, but since last year when I began seriously studying Scripture again, I have been able for the most part, to rest in this grace consistently. I still have my off days, but I all it takes is a song about the blood of Jesus, or a Scripture about God reconciling me through Jesus on the cross and I am renewed once again.
This post is so honest (I am tempted to use the word holy as well. I think it fits) it is almost painful to read. I too have tried to be the best that I can be, before God, and I too have failed. I too have learned that it is not we who achieve perfection, but Christ's perfection that covers us like a wing, and in which we rest. If we can.
What I have found is that if we raise our eyes from our own sins, and look towards the cross instead, our sins become immaterial. Christ does not remember them, and neither should we. Not because they do not need to be dealt with - clearly they do. But because we can become so wrapped up in healing ourselves in Christ that we forget that our role is to bring salt and light to the world, even before our own healing is perfected. Paul had a thorn in the flesh, to remind him that he was human, not divine. And we each have the same. You rightly say that our perfection will not be completed in us until the day we stand before God in eternity.
The conclusion I have reached, after many, many painful years, is that my sins are not there for my destruction, but to remind me that I still have work to do, both for myself and those around me. Not to achieve my own salvation - that is assured already, long ago. But to achieve the healing of the world that God intends through my hands. Whether it is just a smile to a stranger to cheer their day or the conversion of millions through evangelism really doesn't matter. Finding the will of God and sticking to it, through the good times and the bad; that is what matters.
Remember the image of gold being refined by fire? That is Christian life. It is the life Christ himself led, even though he was already pure, and it is the life we each must lead as well.
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