Delivering the final blow to scrupulosity

Hello,I know that i dont post threads on here very often,but i feel like this is something that i need to share with everyone.

15 months ago the devil and his cronies attacked me while i was out of church and weak in my faith and spewed constant blasphemous thoughts into my brain.It was terrifying and i just knew I was guilty of the unpardonable sin and therefore there was no hope for me.

I felt like i was the ONLY christian in the world to have this problem.i felt like crawling into a dark hole and staying there forever.

A few weeks later however i happened upon a webpage discussing the unpardonable sin.I discovered that i had NOT commited it.I was filled with joy.I returned to church and thought that my struggle was over and that i wouldnt have bad thoughts anymore........big mistake.

The thoughts returned and i was consumed by fear once again.I began to have thoughts such as these.

"what if that webiste was wrong?"

"what if they dont have the the truth?"

"what if they lied?"

So i decided to find a secong opinion.......bigger mistake.I soon found 3rd opinions,4th,5th,10th,20th.i listened to online sermons,read books,looked at testimonies of people who had actually been through the SAME struggle.

They all said the same thing.This process continued for 4 months.It was very depressing.I began having thoughts such as these.

"what if their relief is false,and they really did commit it?"

"what if im different?"(what a common thought)

By January ,however it appeared that i finally had braved the struggle.Everything was good,but i knew that i needed to return to God and be thankful that he helped me,and to recieve blessings that i thought were once impossible.But i didn't and became lukewarm........HUGE mistake!

By May i started to have a few bad days dealing with the thoughts and i didn't understand why.So i just ignored it......another small mistake.

Then by July i had found myself in the same situation 1 year earlier.Out of church.Once again weak in my faith,the somewhat expected happened.The struggle returned.I felt completely hopeless because i had already tried every method possible and knew that there was nothing else i could dr was there?

While i was in the shower 1 month later, i was weeping to God.i was worn out,frustrated,hopless and didn't know what to do.As i was weeping i said."Jesus, I've tried everything!".

Then i heard a still,small voice(no doubt from God)say something i will never forget.

"Not everything".

I knew what i had to do.Return to God and become refilled with the Holy Spirit.Since then i have been praying almost daily,going to church,and putting full faith in Christ.I have had a few setbacks,but i always pop right back up.

I will reveal my strategies for delivering the final blow to scrupulosity in my next posts as my laptop battery is almost out.I will return soon but until then.

Don't give up.

God Bless!

Im back.

Anyway sorry for just talking about my self in the last post.I will now share some strategies with you.Remember this though.

38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.Romans 8:38-39

First of all,for those of us that have OCD dont look at the thoughts as a mental problem or a spiritual one.Think of it as this.

You have a defected thought pattern that the devil uses to his advantage.

Even if you don't have OCD,or aren't sure.Then its just the devil putting bad thoughts into your head.The next step is....

If you don't want the thoughts they are not yours.

If it's not from God,you don't have to consider them.
and finally if you have fear after you have these thoughts.They are 100% from the devil because fear is one of his most dangerous weapons.

The next thing im going to talk about is finding reassurance.

Set a limit to how much you need.

Try not to find too much.

which brings me to my next step.How do you convince yourself.Well #1,YOU CAN"T.

Paul said that a carnal mind cannot be satisfied on an intellectual level.

Lets say for example that you have found a reassuring webpage that really "convinced" you.1 week later youre still not convinced and you look for more answers.

Why?Because your carnal and doubtful mind CANNOT be satisfied.ever.Why?

"For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace."Romans 8:6

So there you have it.We need to be spiritually minded.How?

Put full faith in Christ.

even if that is hard for you to do.Sure you can be on meds that help,but in the end what or who really helped you?

Jesus.

Everyone on here can beat this.i dont care if youve struggled for a month,a year,10 years,or 20+ years.

There is hope!

"All that the Father giveth me shall come to me; and him that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out."John 6:37

"No man can come to Me, except the Father which hath sent Me draw him: and I will raise him up at the last day."John 6:44

God Bless and have a wonderful day

you're welcome.I'm very happy to know that God has used me to help someone here.

im glad Jesus could help me help yall.unfortunatley i got carried away and said something in another thread on here that i didn't stop to see if it was from God and ended up hurting some people

thats great happy chicken.Those are the same strategies i use to battle my thoughts.ive been doing it for 3 months and i have to say that it definetly works better than reading a 5 page essay telling me why i havent committed the unpardonable sin.