Those who have been here long enough and tracked my previous posts know without a doubt that this divorce has been a very rocky experience, painful, and hurtful roller coaster of emotions.
It was finalized a bit ago and I feel no different. Matter of fact, I feel more depressed now than when I was separated. Please don't get me wrong, I'm not depressed because I miss what we had or even what we could have had...I'm depressed because it hurts to know that through everything we've been through she still can't do what's right for our kids.
I have custody of 3 kids ages 10, 5, and 2. She was given 50/50 after a 3 month regraduation back to UNsupervised parenting time. She's authorized 3 day/dinner visits after school or 2 day/dinner and one weekend day visit this first month. She used a total of two visits. She used more time to see the kids when she had SUPERVISED parenting time with the courts. At least then she saw them 2 times per week.
I see my kids acting out not knowing why there mom is not seeing them. My youngest constantly asks for his mommy. My oldest is beginning to pick on his friends for no reason at all. My daughter is clingy to any female that comes in or around including her school teachers. And my heart breaks because I can't understand why she's doing this to her children. Some would say that they're better off without her but I don't believe so. I think it's so important for a child to have both his mom and dad whether they're together or not.
I say nothing negative to the kids about their mom. I never have. But it's getting very difficult to keep making excuses why their mom won't see them.
I need to get my oldest into some different counseling. Perhaps AWANA. It starts on the 15 of September. I also think I need him to get to some therapy to discuss some of the issues surrounding his mom choking him. I thought he was doing fairly well, but the reports I'm getting from his friends mom makes me thing different.
I've had sole custody for 6 months and its beginning to wear on me. I really need some encouragement and prayers. I've been off the anti-depressants for over 5 months. And I really don't want to go back on them, but I feel myself going into a state that scares me, again.
Any thoughts and words of encouragement would be very appreciated,
Thank you.
It was finalized a bit ago and I feel no different. Matter of fact, I feel more depressed now than when I was separated. Please don't get me wrong, I'm not depressed because I miss what we had or even what we could have had...I'm depressed because it hurts to know that through everything we've been through she still can't do what's right for our kids.
I have custody of 3 kids ages 10, 5, and 2. She was given 50/50 after a 3 month regraduation back to UNsupervised parenting time. She's authorized 3 day/dinner visits after school or 2 day/dinner and one weekend day visit this first month. She used a total of two visits. She used more time to see the kids when she had SUPERVISED parenting time with the courts. At least then she saw them 2 times per week.
I see my kids acting out not knowing why there mom is not seeing them. My youngest constantly asks for his mommy. My oldest is beginning to pick on his friends for no reason at all. My daughter is clingy to any female that comes in or around including her school teachers. And my heart breaks because I can't understand why she's doing this to her children. Some would say that they're better off without her but I don't believe so. I think it's so important for a child to have both his mom and dad whether they're together or not.
I say nothing negative to the kids about their mom. I never have. But it's getting very difficult to keep making excuses why their mom won't see them.
I need to get my oldest into some different counseling. Perhaps AWANA. It starts on the 15 of September. I also think I need him to get to some therapy to discuss some of the issues surrounding his mom choking him. I thought he was doing fairly well, but the reports I'm getting from his friends mom makes me thing different.
I've had sole custody for 6 months and its beginning to wear on me. I really need some encouragement and prayers. I've been off the anti-depressants for over 5 months. And I really don't want to go back on them, but I feel myself going into a state that scares me, again.
Any thoughts and words of encouragement would be very appreciated,
Thank you.