Recent content by Sonicwhite

It scared me so much that I understand now that I can die from overdoing things....It's just not worth it....I don't have a way to go to NA.....God assures me that everything will be ok.... If I can get my therapist to come to the house maybe they can go take me and will do it that way. I...

In October and over the years I've dealt w addiction to a certain med I have anxiety so I truly do need it....In that month I bought a Internet Benzo off the dark web...I was taking it and getting into my roomies Norco.. My gf talked me into throwing it out...I started to go thru withdrawals...

This is dabro and that's miss twoface.

This is dabro. I'm trying to show off my baby which I miss so much. I live in Tennessee and she's in Oklahoma. Miss you Miss two-face.

Thank you tturt. My dreams are now where things I have seen thru out the day become meshed with my trauma. There still very scary and leave me waking up panicky and asking myself what did that dream mean? So far we have reduced a lot of my medication. The fact why we did that was because I kept...

Doing a little better. Thanks guys. Keep me lifted up as I lift y'all up. Love you.

Thank you all. May God bless Anna in a way that her husband cares about her and when it's my time well I will make the best of it because I know I didn't settle for second bast. I kept Gods command to endure patiently and He will keep me from the hour of trial that comes upon the whole world to...

Just reminding my brothers and sisters to please pray that I will come to a place of peace and acceptance.

I want to ad that what event broke us up was so traumatizing because I was going thru a drug induces psychosis. I was in jail. I never got to tell her how I really felt until 09. By that time it was way to late. So my dreams are PTSD. they don't just go away. And again today my dreams where on...

Thank you muches

this is dabro. Last night I had dream after dream of my ex which I still love. We have been apart going on eleven years. I have made sure that she can't see my fb and I can't and won't submit myself to jealousy by seeing hers. Please pray that God uses these dreams to bring me back to...

Ugh, I really thought I was over all this stuff but, it looks like I'm just going to have to deal with the unanswered question and doubt.....I was hoping one day I would be able to quit meds and life would go back to the way it was......I just can't seem to shake it this time.....wondering if...

I have been single almost a year and I have been single from someone I loved for almost ten years.....I pray that God will bring me a wife that loves Him with all her heart. I pray that I will love her and be attracted to her and she will love me.....Guys I have a problem with looks.....I have...

I get a spike....a question that I fully can never be sure of. Am I dead and at some refining judgment.....Did I die back in 05 from a drug overdose......Has this been all a test? I go off a remind myself that yes I am dead and sitting, standing walking before God......That no one here an...

Yes God Jesus Our Lord see's us little ole us all the way.......I'm glad the seed fell on good soil with me....Praying has always been apart of my routine but I do it more today than ever.