Recent content by Phoenix70

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    Looking for myself

    Thank you. Honesty is appreciated.
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    Past infidelity, depression, and more

    You are right. We both transgressed our love for one another. I am working on myself and have let him know I am there to help him through his pain. We both need to heal and help each other. My fear is that he has lost the will to do it. We met with our pastor yesterday and he said he sees a...
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    Past infidelity, depression, and more

    I think the thing that hurts most is his refusal to believe my pain from his infidelity and transgressions play any part in where we are. He’s running away from me without giving me the same chance I gave him.
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    Looking for myself

    I know I’ve lost my way with God and I hope to revitalize my relationship with Him. This is my key to renewing my spirit and will go a long way towards helping me move forward.
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    Looking for myself

    Thank you for the encouragement. I agree my focus should be on God and how I can improve.
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    Looking for myself

    Thank you for the encouragement.
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    Looking for myself

    Thank you for the words of comfort and support. It’s so hard to see how to keep going. I’ve recently not been able to eat or sleep. I am bereft at the pain I’ve caused. I am bereft at the thought of the loss of my mate. We plan to speak to our Pastor soon, I hope we have a breakthrough.
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    Past infidelity, depression, and more

    Thank you for the prayers. I’ve not given up on us and I pray that I can give him the space he needs while also working on myself and taking steps to show him I can get better by getting the help I need and developing healthy habits and applying them daily.
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    Past infidelity, depression, and more

    My husband has expressed his desire to end our marriage. About 18 years ago he had an emotional affair with someone and it devastated me. We didn’t get marriage counseling for it until about 8 years afterwards. I spent a lot of time in pain with him begging me to let it go before we went to...
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    Looking for myself

    Hello, I’m new to the forum as of 15 minutes ago. I’m here to find a way to help myself out of depression, ptsd, to find God again, and to save my marriage. I pray I can accomplish these things. My depression has ruined my marriage and I’ve broken my husband. I don’t know what to do because he...